Thursday, September 03, 2009
anitisocial life
hmmm well as the title says i feel like being anti social. i dunno really i get up and think lets go to monash and its like................. i cbb then just then i was on the forum chat and i just got on but liek i felt wierd i felt like i didnt want to be there. i dun really get it i feel like im becoming an antisocial person. i feel like i go uni then i come home. i stay at home and watch anime read manga then sleep. i go work come home .......... only once in a while i go out wid friends but its like wierd i feel like i dun belong wid them anymore sigh. i dunno anymore. what am i aiming for? who am i? what am i doing? i feel like im loosing myself and how to interact with people nowadays. the only real interaction i have with people is uni, work, church and the ocasional trip to monash. i dunno anymore i just feel so wierd... sigh hope i can work it out.
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
yes lost phone
yo yo today was ................................ surprising.
first up i got up late i slept through like 3 separate alarms that have snooze functions and i like turned them of one by one for like an hour without knowing it. so i got to uni late for group work lols. and like had to get most of it done which i did surprisingly. oh then i took the bus home. this is where it gets intresting lols. well i was playing world ends with u again. this time trying to finish it becuase my last one crashed on me. so yeah this time should work. well i realised we got to stud park so i rushed to pack the ds back into my bag and get off the bus. and guess what i had ym phoen on my stomach while i was playing and when i got up the phone fell onto teh ground and didnt notice. so i got off the bus without my phone............ i walk 5 m and reaise its not on me. i rush back to the bus but it leaves just as i reach the back of the bus. theres another bus there so i go ask the driver of that bus about getting my phone back and he's like its with the other company u need to get in contact with them. so i run home get the phone and call the bus terminal. the guy there is like i'll call the bus for u and see if its there and give u a call back. he calls back like 20 mins later to tell me that my phone was on the bus and that its a tthe terminal now and i could go pick it up. lucky.
now that was an eventful day. i consider myself really luck as the bus was going back to the terminal not onto caulfield where i doubt i woudl have gotten m y phone back. so yay! i got it back and now can mess around on it still hehe.
@celine yup yupyup i'll get u a souviner dunno what prob be a key chain or something dunno depends on where i go lols. then again i duno what im going to buy there hehehe
@sandra a rock? why a rock? can i even get a rock through customs? ............... i'll try get u one but dunno what will happen lols prob loose it before then lols.
first up i got up late i slept through like 3 separate alarms that have snooze functions and i like turned them of one by one for like an hour without knowing it. so i got to uni late for group work lols. and like had to get most of it done which i did surprisingly. oh then i took the bus home. this is where it gets intresting lols. well i was playing world ends with u again. this time trying to finish it becuase my last one crashed on me. so yeah this time should work. well i realised we got to stud park so i rushed to pack the ds back into my bag and get off the bus. and guess what i had ym phoen on my stomach while i was playing and when i got up the phone fell onto teh ground and didnt notice. so i got off the bus without my phone............ i walk 5 m and reaise its not on me. i rush back to the bus but it leaves just as i reach the back of the bus. theres another bus there so i go ask the driver of that bus about getting my phone back and he's like its with the other company u need to get in contact with them. so i run home get the phone and call the bus terminal. the guy there is like i'll call the bus for u and see if its there and give u a call back. he calls back like 20 mins later to tell me that my phone was on the bus and that its a tthe terminal now and i could go pick it up. lucky.
now that was an eventful day. i consider myself really luck as the bus was going back to the terminal not onto caulfield where i doubt i woudl have gotten m y phone back. so yay! i got it back and now can mess around on it still hehe.
@celine yup yupyup i'll get u a souviner dunno what prob be a key chain or something dunno depends on where i go lols. then again i duno what im going to buy there hehehe
@sandra a rock? why a rock? can i even get a rock through customs? ............... i'll try get u one but dunno what will happen lols prob loose it before then lols.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
lols blog update lols
ok i finally remembered my blog lols. thing is my life is pretty uneventful. there is like nothign to talk about i go to uni or work then come home and do nothing. not a very exciting life is it? as u can tell from my previous post most of the time i blog is when i want to vent. wich isnt really a good thing because i upset other people and stuff. but meh. well now im going to try to blog normally about every day random things.
lets see first up, for all thoes who dont know im going to tokyo!!! wooots lols. im going from the 20th of nov to the 2nd of dec. its going to be awesome. cant wait for it although studying for liek most of it im going to have like 4 days to see parts of tokyo. there is so much i wnat to see but not enough time. hopefully i can go around and find all that i want. first up im going to shop. thats the first thing im going to do, go to shibuya and shinjiku. then im going to go to akihabara if i have time and take lots of happy snaps of me around there. hopefully i dun get lost and can find my way back to my hotel. lols then theres the fish market which would be awesome then im going to take my piccy in like a jap convi store lols. eat convi store food, vending machine drinks lols. find a wierd vending machine and see what it vends. lols visit lots of places around tokyo hopefully. i really want to go to yokohama and see the international port terminal but its close but far and i dont really have that much time to travel. will have to save it for the next trip. i really want to take aphoto of the 101 building and time square
its liek a must. dunno what else im going to do there will see. hopefully i can have tons of fun lols.
hmm......... daily life whats happened lately............ manifest? well that was awesome loved it. i got a fan girl from that that was funny lols. bought tons of moyashimon hehehe. they are awesome. then not much else to talk about.
my work got renovated so new store looks awesome. though because of the look i feel like i have to dress really nicely so ive been wearing shirts and vests and tie's like every day lols. which is fun and i think looks cool and nice. i might start wearing it more oftern. minus the tie and prob wear jeans and sneakers instead of slacks and black shoes. now i need to save save save need to save so much lols
dunno what else to say except hw disappear i dun want u u are annoying lols and gl for all thoes who have exams !!!!! ganbate !!
lets see first up, for all thoes who dont know im going to tokyo!!! wooots lols. im going from the 20th of nov to the 2nd of dec. its going to be awesome. cant wait for it although studying for liek most of it im going to have like 4 days to see parts of tokyo. there is so much i wnat to see but not enough time. hopefully i can go around and find all that i want. first up im going to shop. thats the first thing im going to do, go to shibuya and shinjiku. then im going to go to akihabara if i have time and take lots of happy snaps of me around there. hopefully i dun get lost and can find my way back to my hotel. lols then theres the fish market which would be awesome then im going to take my piccy in like a jap convi store lols. eat convi store food, vending machine drinks lols. find a wierd vending machine and see what it vends. lols visit lots of places around tokyo hopefully. i really want to go to yokohama and see the international port terminal but its close but far and i dont really have that much time to travel. will have to save it for the next trip. i really want to take aphoto of the 101 building and time square
its liek a must. dunno what else im going to do there will see. hopefully i can have tons of fun lols.
hmm......... daily life whats happened lately............ manifest? well that was awesome loved it. i got a fan girl from that that was funny lols. bought tons of moyashimon hehehe. they are awesome. then not much else to talk about.
my work got renovated so new store looks awesome. though because of the look i feel like i have to dress really nicely so ive been wearing shirts and vests and tie's like every day lols. which is fun and i think looks cool and nice. i might start wearing it more oftern. minus the tie and prob wear jeans and sneakers instead of slacks and black shoes. now i need to save save save need to save so much lols
dunno what else to say except hw disappear i dun want u u are annoying lols and gl for all thoes who have exams !!!!! ganbate !!
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
uni life
ummm im not sure what to write about here today........ well today was uni as usual. thing is i came to a realisation. a realisation that im wayyyyyyy to lasy lols. i know i have assignments due and things i need to get done but im just cbb its too much work i'll do it later. also i've found that ive been tired alot of the time now not sure why thought it might be my diet or the ammout of sleep im getting or my mental state. im really not sure any more its strange. i just feel tired all day and theres no reason for it. its like i get up i still feel tired. i wake up a bit but then the rest of the day im still tired. like i feel lethargic the whole time. meh oh well hope its just for a short period of time cause its liek annoying . oh wells
hmm what else oh food lols i was going to try eat healthier but that didnt work out lols. i eat too many lollies and sweet stuff to eat healty and i dun think i can give them up lols. but yeah i want to get fit well be able to run wid out my puffer or swim without it also. hmm i wanna get fit. too much junk food lols.
run run run exercise is good lols
hmm what else oh food lols i was going to try eat healthier but that didnt work out lols. i eat too many lollies and sweet stuff to eat healty and i dun think i can give them up lols. but yeah i want to get fit well be able to run wid out my puffer or swim without it also. hmm i wanna get fit. too much junk food lols.
run run run exercise is good lols
Sunday, May 03, 2009
depression, bipolar or normal?
hmm today went to watch wolverine was awesome. soo very awesome. he as a bro, he dies, theres a sex scene lols. jkjk im not going to give a way the plot. awesome show. had so much fun was bros bday. well not really his bday but like went out for his bday on monday. yups went to eat at sakura awesome place to eat but dam expensive. i didn tlook at the price when i ordered...... i ordered shabu shaubu it was .......... $22.50 T.T then i ordered desert it was ........... $9.50 ............... T.T i had a $30 dollar dinner sniff sniff sniff sniff sniff. i want my $30 backT.T wayy to much for one meal.
anyway. whats wid the title of this post? well i was in the toilet at movies
yes the toilet.
and there were posters saying stuff about depression and bi polar. so i started wondering how i have been feeling lately. and it struck me as kinda wierd i started thinking i was bi polar........ like mood swings and all. how i seem to have had them all ym life one time happy all of a sudden upset... but then i thought that was normal and crap cause like always a reason for it. but the i saw the depression poster. and that was like .................................. sounds so like me. since i have been pretty depressed lately. i know why but no one else does and i dun really care to tell any one atm sorry peoples. i dunno its like randomly i just start feelign depressed thinking about stuff and getting mroe depressed. what am i depressed about? meh lots of stuff. what botheres me? everything well not everything but lots of stuff. but yeah depression its strange at the wierdest fo times it hits u u feel like crap there nothign that makes u feel better and like it dun go away. u pretend that everythign is ok but its not. cause u dun want peopel to worry about u. and its just there. but i wonder how do u grade depression? i mean yeah i feel depressed and all but hwo do u know that u have depression like cronic depression? liek the ones u have to take pills for? sigh i dun really under stand.... oh wells.
i dun want to feel depressed and all just it keeps coming back and bugging me. i get agro or depressed and i cant think strate. its wierd what do i do now? what is my path? is everythign set for me? its odd i know what my path is but then i dunno what my path is. its so confusing. paths are always changing and all things are different.
god set a path for me he has a plan for me and do i follow that plan? atm nto very sure. or nto very closely. but i know its there and i know he's wating for me to follow that plan. so glad that god is gracious and is willing to wait for me. atm there are a few thigns keeping me sane atm. God, my friends n family, and routine. dunno what i woudl do with out them. sigh so much going through my mind atm that i dunno what im thinking everythign is just bla i dunno whats going on whats happening or whats going to happen..... all i want is to live happy and for god.
one thing thats starting to bug me is do i really know what my feelings are do i really know how i feel. i feel like i dun have nay positive emotions atm. or well not alot of them. i seem to be cynical alot of the time nowadays. i see everythign like that happens in a wierd warped way. my annoyance fuze has like gotten smaller and the tiniest thing can set me off. im nto sure whats happening but i dun like it and it just makes me feel more depresed. sigh dunno what im going to do sigh. all things change and all things are different but do they have to change for the worst? cant they change for the better? hmm i think i'll stop now im thinking too much again and its stupid really. well im going to go sleep have work tomorrow.
laters peoples
anyway. whats wid the title of this post? well i was in the toilet at movies
yes the toilet.
and there were posters saying stuff about depression and bi polar. so i started wondering how i have been feeling lately. and it struck me as kinda wierd i started thinking i was bi polar........ like mood swings and all. how i seem to have had them all ym life one time happy all of a sudden upset... but then i thought that was normal and crap cause like always a reason for it. but the i saw the depression poster. and that was like .................................. sounds so like me. since i have been pretty depressed lately. i know why but no one else does and i dun really care to tell any one atm sorry peoples. i dunno its like randomly i just start feelign depressed thinking about stuff and getting mroe depressed. what am i depressed about? meh lots of stuff. what botheres me? everything well not everything but lots of stuff. but yeah depression its strange at the wierdest fo times it hits u u feel like crap there nothign that makes u feel better and like it dun go away. u pretend that everythign is ok but its not. cause u dun want peopel to worry about u. and its just there. but i wonder how do u grade depression? i mean yeah i feel depressed and all but hwo do u know that u have depression like cronic depression? liek the ones u have to take pills for? sigh i dun really under stand.... oh wells.
i dun want to feel depressed and all just it keeps coming back and bugging me. i get agro or depressed and i cant think strate. its wierd what do i do now? what is my path? is everythign set for me? its odd i know what my path is but then i dunno what my path is. its so confusing. paths are always changing and all things are different.
god set a path for me he has a plan for me and do i follow that plan? atm nto very sure. or nto very closely. but i know its there and i know he's wating for me to follow that plan. so glad that god is gracious and is willing to wait for me. atm there are a few thigns keeping me sane atm. God, my friends n family, and routine. dunno what i woudl do with out them. sigh so much going through my mind atm that i dunno what im thinking everythign is just bla i dunno whats going on whats happening or whats going to happen..... all i want is to live happy and for god.
one thing thats starting to bug me is do i really know what my feelings are do i really know how i feel. i feel like i dun have nay positive emotions atm. or well not alot of them. i seem to be cynical alot of the time nowadays. i see everythign like that happens in a wierd warped way. my annoyance fuze has like gotten smaller and the tiniest thing can set me off. im nto sure whats happening but i dun like it and it just makes me feel more depresed. sigh dunno what im going to do sigh. all things change and all things are different but do they have to change for the worst? cant they change for the better? hmm i think i'll stop now im thinking too much again and its stupid really. well im going to go sleep have work tomorrow.
laters peoples
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
carsh
yeah i crashed into someone on monday........... yeah so like both the cars are write offs the other guy is in hospital and im going to court. lols nah not that bad but i did get in a crash. only a little one no one hurt and could hardly tell the damage to the cars. like my car bit of green paint gone his car? could hardly tell just a bit of paint from our car on his. and the stupid guy is like triyn gto milk me for all the money he can get grrr.... so need to get pics of the damage from him. in case he's charging for things that i didnt cause.
anyway it totally freaked me out dunno what im susposed to do and dad is like... not fussed about it hes like it happens so it happens. and like yeah. just hope i dun have to pay that much cause the money i have to pay him i could have used for somethign else dam it.
first time driving that car also very differnt to what im used to the car is longer and less control well for me it is less control. it felt so diff that i was going faster than expected oh well. its done and its done. well my comp is over but next com has started and have so many assignments to go. sigh last year i was MIA for like 2 months this year i think i will be mia for longer liek 3 or 4 months
anyway it totally freaked me out dunno what im susposed to do and dad is like... not fussed about it hes like it happens so it happens. and like yeah. just hope i dun have to pay that much cause the money i have to pay him i could have used for somethign else dam it.
first time driving that car also very differnt to what im used to the car is longer and less control well for me it is less control. it felt so diff that i was going faster than expected oh well. its done and its done. well my comp is over but next com has started and have so many assignments to go. sigh last year i was MIA for like 2 months this year i think i will be mia for longer liek 3 or 4 months
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
lols sleeping at uni
lols well tonight im staying over at uni. hehehe its goign to be so crappy staying over night to work on my project butthers so much to do dunno how much we are goign to get done. hope i win i want that 2k prize. well i'll only get $666 of it but who cares its money lols. well anyway what else is goign on? not much. oh sorry for not posting been busy and nothign i wanted to post about here well there has been stuff but didnt want to post it cause of stuff yeah.... anyway not much time for anythign any more lots of time on this project and work. so dun have time to bum wid people. though i do bum wid friends from mcac alot. during most of my free time. so for thoes from church or hs that want to meet up wid me msg me if your at monash or in the city cuase i'll be at one or the other. lols. hmm well thats all so thats it for the night lols. i might updat what its liek to sleep at uni as well probably wake up wid sores all over again. its painful lols. anyway back to doing hw now lols laters and wait for the next post.
ohh ps. i love.................................................................................................. foooodddddd but havnt eaten much today. had a melon bread and a sausage bun from bread top. for lunch lots of chocolate. for dinner havnt eaten yet but prob eat nandos and have two bags of chips also here hehehe so junk food lols.
ohh ps. i love.................................................................................................. foooodddddd but havnt eaten much today. had a melon bread and a sausage bun from bread top. for lunch lots of chocolate. for dinner havnt eaten yet but prob eat nandos and have two bags of chips also here hehehe so junk food lols.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
hmm chruch
well today went to church. as alot of u know im christian. well most of u know i think and if u dun know now u know. well i havnt' been going recently well for about a year or two. i realized that i actually missed church. the reason i stoped going was cause i felt out of place and awkard. it felt like i didnt belong there. but then when i wasnt at church it felt like i was missing something. i know i belive in God. even when i didnt go church i always asked God what to do and to look after me. i was strugling with what i believed in but i realied that i do believe in him. but i didnt know how much i wanted to commit to him and how i wa ssusposed to do that. in church i felt left out and that no one noticed me. being me i dun think very highly of myself. part of the reason why i felt left out and didnt belong was that there wernt that many people around my age. and the ones that were were heading in a diff direction. i dunno why but prob me just being insecure. in curch there are tight knit groups and i felt like i didnt belong in any of thoes. but now that i went back after a long time it seems diff now. maybe cause i went wid a friend who hasnt been before made it feel diff or my atitude to it changed. now it dun seem so much as iff im left out or anything. and that i feel more comfortable. maybe tis God chalenging me to move past my insecurities and stuff. i still feel insecure there. but it feels more welcoming. and i realised also that people did notice that i was gone. they did see that i wasnt coming. and they did look out for me. they did pray for me. and i tank then for that they they cared about me that much. thank u guys.
well after that rambling now. what happened during the day... well church obviously. met sharon there lols didnt expect to see her there. she was there for free food and came wid her friend. after that she was going to city. it was cool to chat to her. never really chatted to her. but was cool. what else after that went home. didnt do much except watch anime and play games. now doing hw. but not going to be doing that for much longer, hmm what to do lols
well after that rambling now. what happened during the day... well church obviously. met sharon there lols didnt expect to see her there. she was there for free food and came wid her friend. after that she was going to city. it was cool to chat to her. never really chatted to her. but was cool. what else after that went home. didnt do much except watch anime and play games. now doing hw. but not going to be doing that for much longer, hmm what to do lols
Thursday, March 12, 2009
NET
NET i got my NET back!!!!!!! woots lols finally got the net back so stupid how long it too to ge tthe net back grrr i wanted it back faster. oh well at least its back now. now i can finally get work done at a better pase and check my emails and events info faster. i dunno how i suvived wid out it for the past few weeks. well now atm not much just dling alot hehehe. trying not to dl to much though cuase we dun want to be capped to early but meh it should be ok.
to day was awesome went to monash for the mcac bbq. hehe it was awesome so many newbies. i so didnt know what to do. so spent most of the time bekind the bbq talking to the oldies hehe mainly cause im not that good at talking to new people. if i get to know then first on msn or chat or somethign then its easier for me to talk to them in person. but just going up to a random and saying hi im zac how are u and bla bla bla bla is kind ahard for me. not really used to it. but meh. what else i ate alot it was gooooood i had 2 or 3 sausages today i think not sure. then after bbq went and got these mochie things that were nice hehe. and had snack foods. then dinner had this chicken stuff dad made tasted better than i thought it would.
my post lack any motivation behind them any more i've gotten lasy with them lols. well it was a fun day three amandas lols so many duplicates in teh club now lols. what to do. met steph she joined the club i rembered her form some where but dun rember where. think it was from church but cant rember when or what. but meh. cooking was fun dunno why i didnt help out sooner.
on other info im going fine still not over stuff but getting there as long as nothing sparks it up again it should be ok. not seeing or talking to her helps also. but meh it all works out eventually i think. what else to talk about i dunno not much else to say. i ate food today which was good and i got my net back! lols i'lve pretty much been dling non stop since i got it back lols it so cool 200gig limit. i cant helpl being excited about it lols.
well thats it for the post
zac
to day was awesome went to monash for the mcac bbq. hehe it was awesome so many newbies. i so didnt know what to do. so spent most of the time bekind the bbq talking to the oldies hehe mainly cause im not that good at talking to new people. if i get to know then first on msn or chat or somethign then its easier for me to talk to them in person. but just going up to a random and saying hi im zac how are u and bla bla bla bla is kind ahard for me. not really used to it. but meh. what else i ate alot it was gooooood i had 2 or 3 sausages today i think not sure. then after bbq went and got these mochie things that were nice hehe. and had snack foods. then dinner had this chicken stuff dad made tasted better than i thought it would.
my post lack any motivation behind them any more i've gotten lasy with them lols. well it was a fun day three amandas lols so many duplicates in teh club now lols. what to do. met steph she joined the club i rembered her form some where but dun rember where. think it was from church but cant rember when or what. but meh. cooking was fun dunno why i didnt help out sooner.
on other info im going fine still not over stuff but getting there as long as nothing sparks it up again it should be ok. not seeing or talking to her helps also. but meh it all works out eventually i think. what else to talk about i dunno not much else to say. i ate food today which was good and i got my net back! lols i'lve pretty much been dling non stop since i got it back lols it so cool 200gig limit. i cant helpl being excited about it lols.
well thats it for the post
zac
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
no net
well i cant exactly remember what happened in the last week. kept forgetting to write stuff down in my book. soo i'll write what i can remember. last monday went to uni to check my time table. and what studio i got into. got into the one i wanted which is awesome. then bummed around a bit till les came to the city. hehe went to get plushies !!! lols it was awseome i spent $15 bux got a giant yoshi and a mushroom!!! wanted to give the mushroom to les since she didnt get anythign but she didnt want. then went to get soem stuff to eat and go home. cant rember what else happened that day. tuesday ..... my mind is blank all i remember is going monash then leaving early cause i saw someone i think and going to class. wednesday had a day off but went to uni anyway to do hw which we got done. thursday had class then went to monash and bummed around for a bit. friday went to uni had class then went to monash to bum. sat work and ran into les and mel at chaddy. they were bummign around. they hung aroudn till i finished work. lols all cause mel wanted to see me do ddr which i suck at. i told u mel that i suck at it mind u i dun try to hard. lols well i might get better if i had a mat at home. though the chances of me getting one are low. since i dun have a ps or ps2. ddr just isnt my thing. i prefer shuffleing though i dun do much of that nowadays. meh. sunday had work thats about it. monday? not much had uni off cause of labor day lols so lucky hey monash students still had class lols. well spent the day watching anime got up at like 1 pm lols and watched anime mum got angry at me cause i took a nap at like 5 and slept till 10 and she told me off cause not being able to wake up early tomorrow but i proved her wrong and woke up lols. what else.... not much really. today? nothign much happened just random stuff went to uni early forgot some work for class. probably goign to go to monash to visit peoples apart from that no idea lols.
welll thats it for this post.
oh wait should mention that i should be getting my net back at 8 pm tomorrow night according to TPG. but thinking they will be wrong and delay it again lols. so hopefully i get it tomorrow night! hehehe so just wait for the post tomorrow!
welll thats it for this post.
oh wait should mention that i should be getting my net back at 8 pm tomorrow night according to TPG. but thinking they will be wrong and delay it again lols. so hopefully i get it tomorrow night! hehehe so just wait for the post tomorrow!
Monday, March 02, 2009
lonnnng post lols
this will be very long about 5 days of posts lols.
soo here i go
26/2/09
the actual first day of no net
well yesterday was a false start lols. the tech person didnt show up so today is the actual first day of no net. cousin called up while i was at work and said that it had been switched over. so now no net T.T going to go to maccas to use the free wifi lols to register on TPG. wonder what that will be like? 200 gig limit hehehehe
well anyway back to my other stuff what i actually did today. today went to monash again lols. to hand out wid friends from MCAC. awesome fun it was. lols one of the Asean people reconised me lols. seen her like every day i was there. tues she asked me to join, wed friend roped me into joining, thurs randomly saw/ she said hi lols. bumped into tim and lily there whoule they were promoting amazing race. sat there and talked to them for a bit then i went to work. and man work was bad they had a whole lot of boxes in. pretty much the whole store room was full of boxes. i pretty much spent the whole night trying to pack the boxes away so that they wernt on the floor. only managed to get about half of them on shelves. so there are liek 5 big boxes sitting on the floor of the store room waiting for a place to be found for them. lols i wonder who orded them cause they ordered way to many boxes. now no room for anything in the store room. meh oh well.
ohh got a suprise today les came down to monash which was cool seeing her again. she brought her little dog wid her. OSCAR!! lols grrr oscar didnt remember mee...... he was scared of me dam it. he better rember me next time les or BBQ dog hehehehe.
hmm what else? ooh got visited by ming today which was cool didnt expect that. she walked into the store just as we were shutting up. then walked out again. called her after if she wanted to bum but she was wid her mum meh.
now for what i ate today. i had a red bean paste bun for brunch then went to monash. at monash didnt eat anything just had a can of pepsi. at work i had nothing else had a OJ and some wedges after work. so i didnt eat that much food peoples.
oh i might be goign to stay over at friends house tonight so i might be able to blog this down. going over to check out a new mouse i might get since i've been getting cramps in my arm lately. he might be getting teh same mouse. if i get it ti will be $50 spend lols meh
thats it for this day lols
maybe not quite it for the night. mum just told me to look after myself said i was so thin. i guess this really means i havn't been eating much. seems like its pretty bad if my parents are noticing it now. i guess not eating health or skipping lunch alot of the time dont help. people ask me what emotional state am i in all the time now. i gues i really do have friends that care about me alot and im really grateful for them. i wish the was some way i could repay them for what they have done for me. i dont really know what to do about how skinny i've gotten. how do i put on more weight? i know eatign is the way but im not going to be eating much anyway sigh. i need to think of wa way to get ouve rthe feelings im feeling. i know people say time but i really dun want to be patient atm. i want to get over thsi faster sigh. oh i might be starting another blog for my private thoughs and another one where i put mroe personal stuff but only a few peopel can read so that would be two new blogs. dunno if i will though.
27/02/09
Gaming and thinking
im actually writing this on the 28th but cbb. its the morning so it dun really matter. lets se yesterday i woke up late about 11.30 cause the night before i was drawing and smsing random peopel as i had no net. the drawings i did looked really cool so i'll try post them up eventually but cbb atm. lols what else. lests see who did i sms randomly ther was phe, les, celine, ming and adrian. think there was someone else but not sure. it was fun lols. back to what happened yesterday. got up late actually woke up from friend a msg from adrian asking if i was up yet cause i was susposed to go his place to game. lols so when to his place and played alantica and cs teh whole day. fun fun fun lols. really just went to his place to try a new mouse out. the mouse is nice not so sure about the look of it the designer in me goes gahh... but it feels so nice lols. so $39 for it less thant i though. adrian also lent me a spare netowrk card to test out our new connectin when its connected. so awesome. ended up staying over night since by the time we finished playing ti was about 12.30 1 am and nhe didnt want to drive me hoem which was ok since i dun want him driving tired.
over all teh day was good signed up for tpg, played games, ordered a new mouse and had fun wid a friend. now goign to work on teh bus. lols its so hard to write on teh bus. u cant read my writing lols.
now the update on what i ate. no breaky cause i got up late sorry peopels then for lunch i had chicken and chips. had about 1.5 pieces of fried chicken and teh chips. seems i cant eat as much as i used to any mroe. oh well for dinner i had thai food. adrians mum bought back. had mroe than i would usually eat thats mainly caus i had to. but it was good so that i ate more. today havnt had much only ate a piece fo toast so far. not sure what i will eat fo rlunch. but prob will dun want to get skinnier as mum has started to notice. oh well.
i wonder when we are going to start swimming. have to organise with celine and jimmy to when we are swimming. wonder if we will go weekdays ro weekends oh well. thats it for now
after work now. not much happened at work today so not much new to tak about oh except that i made budget this week as well as the store doing 110% of tis budget. which means i get commission this week. which means extra $$$ lols. and the 110% thing means that there is $2000 to split between the members who made budget. which is awesoem cause more $$$ lols wonder how much extra i will ge. it its alot i'll buy more anime &manga or upgrade my com again maybe buy a ipod. though im probably goign to save it for the trip at end of year. i wante to go thailand malaysia and japan. though prob only going to go to thailand and malaysia. parents dun like me traveling alone. they dun trus my friends either cause of my first year camp. meh its ok. strangely it was jimmy that convinced them somewhat that it would be ok. lols told them that he was going lools said he was responsible since hes the treasure for MCAC and C&S. hopefully i will be able to go since i dun really wnat to go on the study tour this year. to mexico and vietnam.. i want vietnam and japan. when are they goign to do a dam tour to japan grrrrr.... oh well just have tow ait for it. though cant wait for end of year now. got to start planning.
1/3/09
Accidental meeting & thoughts
wrighting this post on the second forgot to write it last night. yesterday was pretty good day woke up late. which sucked cause i wanted to go church. but no one woke me up oh well. got ready for work on teh bus bumped into celine, amanda and jia che (sorry if i misspell) which was fun bummed wid them for a bit before work. saw rain and nas as well at nandos they were watchign movie wid the others. oh and ran into big alex also whcih was random. after that had work that was ok mostly boring stuff lookign for missing items. serving customers. and bumming wid workmates while we wait for customers to show up. lots of chatting about life mostly about uni and random stuff going on in our lives. lots about relationships and family but msotly about what we did the night before or during teh week. oh we also talked about end of year. me wanting to go thailand and malaysia. trying to work out how to convince parents to let me go. its really hard to convince my parents to let me do anythign on my own. like travel, clubbing, go on trips iwd friends. hopefully i can go to all the things i planned this year. oh well just have to wait and see what happenes.
didnt do much last night just stayed at home and watched anime. not much else to do. went through a whole series. lols though i did eat alot yesterday had, sushi, chips, M&Ms and fried rice. so its good im eating more. hopefulyl can keep eatign this much. very much depends on my mood. i felt so full yesterday.
well thats it for this mass post its liek long very long lols now got to go fill otu forms and get stuff signed. sigh......
soo here i go
26/2/09
the actual first day of no net
well yesterday was a false start lols. the tech person didnt show up so today is the actual first day of no net. cousin called up while i was at work and said that it had been switched over. so now no net T.T going to go to maccas to use the free wifi lols to register on TPG. wonder what that will be like? 200 gig limit hehehehe
well anyway back to my other stuff what i actually did today. today went to monash again lols. to hand out wid friends from MCAC. awesome fun it was. lols one of the Asean people reconised me lols. seen her like every day i was there. tues she asked me to join, wed friend roped me into joining, thurs randomly saw/ she said hi lols. bumped into tim and lily there whoule they were promoting amazing race. sat there and talked to them for a bit then i went to work. and man work was bad they had a whole lot of boxes in. pretty much the whole store room was full of boxes. i pretty much spent the whole night trying to pack the boxes away so that they wernt on the floor. only managed to get about half of them on shelves. so there are liek 5 big boxes sitting on the floor of the store room waiting for a place to be found for them. lols i wonder who orded them cause they ordered way to many boxes. now no room for anything in the store room. meh oh well.
ohh got a suprise today les came down to monash which was cool seeing her again. she brought her little dog wid her. OSCAR!! lols grrr oscar didnt remember mee...... he was scared of me dam it. he better rember me next time les or BBQ dog hehehehe.
hmm what else? ooh got visited by ming today which was cool didnt expect that. she walked into the store just as we were shutting up. then walked out again. called her after if she wanted to bum but she was wid her mum meh.
now for what i ate today. i had a red bean paste bun for brunch then went to monash. at monash didnt eat anything just had a can of pepsi. at work i had nothing else had a OJ and some wedges after work. so i didnt eat that much food peoples.
oh i might be goign to stay over at friends house tonight so i might be able to blog this down. going over to check out a new mouse i might get since i've been getting cramps in my arm lately. he might be getting teh same mouse. if i get it ti will be $50 spend lols meh
thats it for this day lols
maybe not quite it for the night. mum just told me to look after myself said i was so thin. i guess this really means i havn't been eating much. seems like its pretty bad if my parents are noticing it now. i guess not eating health or skipping lunch alot of the time dont help. people ask me what emotional state am i in all the time now. i gues i really do have friends that care about me alot and im really grateful for them. i wish the was some way i could repay them for what they have done for me. i dont really know what to do about how skinny i've gotten. how do i put on more weight? i know eatign is the way but im not going to be eating much anyway sigh. i need to think of wa way to get ouve rthe feelings im feeling. i know people say time but i really dun want to be patient atm. i want to get over thsi faster sigh. oh i might be starting another blog for my private thoughs and another one where i put mroe personal stuff but only a few peopel can read so that would be two new blogs. dunno if i will though.
27/02/09
Gaming and thinking
im actually writing this on the 28th but cbb. its the morning so it dun really matter. lets se yesterday i woke up late about 11.30 cause the night before i was drawing and smsing random peopel as i had no net. the drawings i did looked really cool so i'll try post them up eventually but cbb atm. lols what else. lests see who did i sms randomly ther was phe, les, celine, ming and adrian. think there was someone else but not sure. it was fun lols. back to what happened yesterday. got up late actually woke up from friend a msg from adrian asking if i was up yet cause i was susposed to go his place to game. lols so when to his place and played alantica and cs teh whole day. fun fun fun lols. really just went to his place to try a new mouse out. the mouse is nice not so sure about the look of it the designer in me goes gahh... but it feels so nice lols. so $39 for it less thant i though. adrian also lent me a spare netowrk card to test out our new connectin when its connected. so awesome. ended up staying over night since by the time we finished playing ti was about 12.30 1 am and nhe didnt want to drive me hoem which was ok since i dun want him driving tired.
over all teh day was good signed up for tpg, played games, ordered a new mouse and had fun wid a friend. now goign to work on teh bus. lols its so hard to write on teh bus. u cant read my writing lols.
now the update on what i ate. no breaky cause i got up late sorry peopels then for lunch i had chicken and chips. had about 1.5 pieces of fried chicken and teh chips. seems i cant eat as much as i used to any mroe. oh well for dinner i had thai food. adrians mum bought back. had mroe than i would usually eat thats mainly caus i had to. but it was good so that i ate more. today havnt had much only ate a piece fo toast so far. not sure what i will eat fo rlunch. but prob will dun want to get skinnier as mum has started to notice. oh well.
i wonder when we are going to start swimming. have to organise with celine and jimmy to when we are swimming. wonder if we will go weekdays ro weekends oh well. thats it for now
after work now. not much happened at work today so not much new to tak about oh except that i made budget this week as well as the store doing 110% of tis budget. which means i get commission this week. which means extra $$$ lols. and the 110% thing means that there is $2000 to split between the members who made budget. which is awesoem cause more $$$ lols wonder how much extra i will ge. it its alot i'll buy more anime &manga or upgrade my com again maybe buy a ipod. though im probably goign to save it for the trip at end of year. i wante to go thailand malaysia and japan. though prob only going to go to thailand and malaysia. parents dun like me traveling alone. they dun trus my friends either cause of my first year camp. meh its ok. strangely it was jimmy that convinced them somewhat that it would be ok. lols told them that he was going lools said he was responsible since hes the treasure for MCAC and C&S. hopefully i will be able to go since i dun really wnat to go on the study tour this year. to mexico and vietnam.. i want vietnam and japan. when are they goign to do a dam tour to japan grrrrr.... oh well just have tow ait for it. though cant wait for end of year now. got to start planning.
1/3/09
Accidental meeting & thoughts
wrighting this post on the second forgot to write it last night. yesterday was pretty good day woke up late. which sucked cause i wanted to go church. but no one woke me up oh well. got ready for work on teh bus bumped into celine, amanda and jia che (sorry if i misspell) which was fun bummed wid them for a bit before work. saw rain and nas as well at nandos they were watchign movie wid the others. oh and ran into big alex also whcih was random. after that had work that was ok mostly boring stuff lookign for missing items. serving customers. and bumming wid workmates while we wait for customers to show up. lots of chatting about life mostly about uni and random stuff going on in our lives. lots about relationships and family but msotly about what we did the night before or during teh week. oh we also talked about end of year. me wanting to go thailand and malaysia. trying to work out how to convince parents to let me go. its really hard to convince my parents to let me do anythign on my own. like travel, clubbing, go on trips iwd friends. hopefully i can go to all the things i planned this year. oh well just have to wait and see what happenes.
didnt do much last night just stayed at home and watched anime. not much else to do. went through a whole series. lols though i did eat alot yesterday had, sushi, chips, M&Ms and fried rice. so its good im eating more. hopefulyl can keep eatign this much. very much depends on my mood. i felt so full yesterday.
well thats it for this mass post its liek long very long lols now got to go fill otu forms and get stuff signed. sigh......
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
morning madness and gossip
hey peoples today im going to write my blog as it happenes since i dun have the internet for the next few days. about 5 working days i think. so for the next five days the blog will be different and have different sections. i will post as soon as i get a connection to the net and it will seem wierd as days might be broken up into sections or be in like morning afternoon and night parts or there will be like 2 or 3 days blogs in one post. so see what happens.
sooo day 1 without internet.
25/2/2009
so yes tod ay woke up late. was susposed to wake up at 6.30 so i could take a 7. 30 bus to city for my balloting thing. Because i woke up late at 7 am instead of the 6.30 i planned i had to get ready in 15 mins. shower, change brush teeth everything. managed it but to make it worse i was thinking to much during this whole time so i started to feel sick again. Ended up dry hurling (vomiting wid out anythign coming out) for like 5 mins. so didnt feel good. Because of that had to run to bus stop to catch bus. now on the bus and not feelign much better actualyl feeling much worse must have been the running. Dunno if i will eat to day as im not exactly in the mood to eat i'll try to eat some thing but probably wont eat much. here i woudl say if celine eats i will eat also but i really dun feel like eating..... meh
well today im susposed to ballot for the studio i want to be in which is kinda cool cause u kinda get to choose what kind of thing u will design for a semester. wonder what i will get into. i will probably go for the oens that have better times for me and sound good cauase i dun want 8 pm lectures or tutes cause its just so hard for me to get home. it really sucks. but hopefully there are some that are during the day and i dun ahve to go to night lectures. which will be cool. after that i plan to go to the plushie store not sure if i will go though cause might not have time to go. as i want to go monash to vist people. but even that is a mayve as i dun want to run into someone there. will see depends on what happens today.
thats it for what happened before 8 am and what i was thinking at the time.
thank u
part 2
lols its only an hour later but im on a com at uni thought i better post it before i forget so i did. what else has changed since an hour ago? not much lols i thought mroe on the train didnt make me feel much better. and to top it off my r4 seems to be having some troubles so might need to get my other r4 and chips off yvonne. dunno if i will get them back.... meh oh well if i dun i'll jsut go buy another one see what happenes. hoepfully i wont need to. what else.... umm i have no idea what is going to happen today. its raining outside which sucks hope its not raining at monash wither wise it will be another wet day like last year.
u know how i say i dun like gossip but it seems like i partake in it as well. i know its bad and i try not to. but it seems to happen. truthfully i dun liek it, its how rumors are spread and how they get worse. something small can turn into somethign big and move around turning people against each other. personally i dun like it. but i seem to make it worse. how do i stop it? im not sure. i've thought about it and only a few things have come to my mind. not talk about other peoples problems. thats a given but its hard as well not to talk if your not sure how to give advice to that person. the onyl way i can think of to get around the gossip spreading is to talk to some one else that the person who u are trying to help has talked to that way only the people close to that person know. though the other problem wid gossip is when two people are fighting and one side or both sides want to tell everyone. when its like that lots of peopel find out and take up a side and then one side is seen in a bad light and people wont hear out the other side. what can people do? i think hear both sides out. but that is always easier said than done. i guess what i want to say is gossip is bad it breaks friends up, it breaks couples up, it breaks, groups up. not much can be done for what has happened to people already but what can be done if no one tries to fix the problem and just leaves? then everyone just gets broken up.
so thats it for the morning its now 9.18 am. i will post again later in the day if possible probably edit this post and put iti on the end. if not i will post it tomorrow or the day after. all depends on what happens
part 3
lols im actually at home now lols. nets still working people from telstra who were susposed to come over didnt show up so we still have our net. lols yay!! so it wont be the first day wid out net hahaha. oh well maybe it might be tomorrow. anyways onto the next part of the day.
soo i sat through the baloting lecture. it was good there were a quite a few good times and ones that i wanted to do. i really want to do the green roof one cause its so awaesome. mainly because it has somethign to do with my last studio. after that i went to a friends house. wanted to see it since she just move place. ahaha its so cool its a town house with three floors. lols and one of the floors has mirrors along the whole wall looks so cool. sorry phe seeing friends place takes precedent over plushies. so didnt go plushie store T.T maybe another day i will go. but its ok hmm what else. oh then i went to monash and hung out with my friends from MCAC there. saw another friend and ended up joining asean wid him. i so dun know why i joined not going to use the stuff or go to the events probably. unless others make me go or i can be bothered going. hmm... dunno what to talk about oh time talbe is awesome ness got mondays off so that means probably going to be spending that time at monash or working. might have wednesday off also well im susposed to but there was a clash with my classes i have two on thursday at the same time so apparently one of them is going to be changed but dunno when to so will have to see. probably on monday. i also find out the studio im in on monday as well. hopefully its a good one.
hmm what did i eat today... i had a spring roll today and will need to eat dinner because im at home and mum will make me. hehe food is not a problem u can survive on sugar!! wahahaha
and noooo im not doing a sailor moon fuka crossplay its never gonna happen. i have no idea how it spread from a joke at a dinner to everybody............ its suprisingly fast way to fast for that to happen. its actually scary...
well thats the blog for the day hopefully the tech person will come tomorrow and change us over. even though it means no net. it means fast get the new net wid awsome limit.
zac
sooo day 1 without internet.
25/2/2009
so yes tod ay woke up late. was susposed to wake up at 6.30 so i could take a 7. 30 bus to city for my balloting thing. Because i woke up late at 7 am instead of the 6.30 i planned i had to get ready in 15 mins. shower, change brush teeth everything. managed it but to make it worse i was thinking to much during this whole time so i started to feel sick again. Ended up dry hurling (vomiting wid out anythign coming out) for like 5 mins. so didnt feel good. Because of that had to run to bus stop to catch bus. now on the bus and not feelign much better actualyl feeling much worse must have been the running. Dunno if i will eat to day as im not exactly in the mood to eat i'll try to eat some thing but probably wont eat much. here i woudl say if celine eats i will eat also but i really dun feel like eating..... meh
well today im susposed to ballot for the studio i want to be in which is kinda cool cause u kinda get to choose what kind of thing u will design for a semester. wonder what i will get into. i will probably go for the oens that have better times for me and sound good cauase i dun want 8 pm lectures or tutes cause its just so hard for me to get home. it really sucks. but hopefully there are some that are during the day and i dun ahve to go to night lectures. which will be cool. after that i plan to go to the plushie store not sure if i will go though cause might not have time to go. as i want to go monash to vist people. but even that is a mayve as i dun want to run into someone there. will see depends on what happens today.
thats it for what happened before 8 am and what i was thinking at the time.
thank u
part 2
lols its only an hour later but im on a com at uni thought i better post it before i forget so i did. what else has changed since an hour ago? not much lols i thought mroe on the train didnt make me feel much better. and to top it off my r4 seems to be having some troubles so might need to get my other r4 and chips off yvonne. dunno if i will get them back.... meh oh well if i dun i'll jsut go buy another one see what happenes. hoepfully i wont need to. what else.... umm i have no idea what is going to happen today. its raining outside which sucks hope its not raining at monash wither wise it will be another wet day like last year.
u know how i say i dun like gossip but it seems like i partake in it as well. i know its bad and i try not to. but it seems to happen. truthfully i dun liek it, its how rumors are spread and how they get worse. something small can turn into somethign big and move around turning people against each other. personally i dun like it. but i seem to make it worse. how do i stop it? im not sure. i've thought about it and only a few things have come to my mind. not talk about other peoples problems. thats a given but its hard as well not to talk if your not sure how to give advice to that person. the onyl way i can think of to get around the gossip spreading is to talk to some one else that the person who u are trying to help has talked to that way only the people close to that person know. though the other problem wid gossip is when two people are fighting and one side or both sides want to tell everyone. when its like that lots of peopel find out and take up a side and then one side is seen in a bad light and people wont hear out the other side. what can people do? i think hear both sides out. but that is always easier said than done. i guess what i want to say is gossip is bad it breaks friends up, it breaks couples up, it breaks, groups up. not much can be done for what has happened to people already but what can be done if no one tries to fix the problem and just leaves? then everyone just gets broken up.
so thats it for the morning its now 9.18 am. i will post again later in the day if possible probably edit this post and put iti on the end. if not i will post it tomorrow or the day after. all depends on what happens
part 3
lols im actually at home now lols. nets still working people from telstra who were susposed to come over didnt show up so we still have our net. lols yay!! so it wont be the first day wid out net hahaha. oh well maybe it might be tomorrow. anyways onto the next part of the day.
soo i sat through the baloting lecture. it was good there were a quite a few good times and ones that i wanted to do. i really want to do the green roof one cause its so awaesome. mainly because it has somethign to do with my last studio. after that i went to a friends house. wanted to see it since she just move place. ahaha its so cool its a town house with three floors. lols and one of the floors has mirrors along the whole wall looks so cool. sorry phe seeing friends place takes precedent over plushies. so didnt go plushie store T.T maybe another day i will go. but its ok hmm what else. oh then i went to monash and hung out with my friends from MCAC there. saw another friend and ended up joining asean wid him. i so dun know why i joined not going to use the stuff or go to the events probably. unless others make me go or i can be bothered going. hmm... dunno what to talk about oh time talbe is awesome ness got mondays off so that means probably going to be spending that time at monash or working. might have wednesday off also well im susposed to but there was a clash with my classes i have two on thursday at the same time so apparently one of them is going to be changed but dunno when to so will have to see. probably on monday. i also find out the studio im in on monday as well. hopefully its a good one.
hmm what did i eat today... i had a spring roll today and will need to eat dinner because im at home and mum will make me. hehe food is not a problem u can survive on sugar!! wahahaha
and noooo im not doing a sailor moon fuka crossplay its never gonna happen. i have no idea how it spread from a joke at a dinner to everybody............ its suprisingly fast way to fast for that to happen. its actually scary...
well thats the blog for the day hopefully the tech person will come tomorrow and change us over. even though it means no net. it means fast get the new net wid awsome limit.
zac
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
com parts and avoidance
today was a good and bad day started out crap cause i had to wake up at 5.30 to do my one subject where i had to allocate a tute. kinda stupid the only tutorial i acttually have to book a slot for and i have to get up that early to do it. but managed to get a good time like i got into the tute that i wanted and my friends were goign to go for but seems liek they got into a different one and now the one friend i have in it is going to change to the other tute to be with the others. meh i dun mind so much just hard to make new friends when the groups are already defined by the time others have spent together already. but its ok since i shoudl know a few of the other people i hope in my class.
after i set my time talbe i talked to a few peopel online
but not many then went back to sleep cause was going out during the day. went to buy stuff for out net work cousin bought ram was goign to buy a n series router so that no chance of there being no reception in out house. but we didnt get the router cause wasnt sure about some stuff. then we went to monash uni. went to return another router that we bought a while ago that we didnt want any more cause it wasnt strong enought. we never opened it so now we getting better one. but we have to buy somethign from comp now. probably goign to get a ipod not sure. or more head phones who know
any way after that went to vist mcac store. was way busy got free vit water from their stand walked around was fun. signed up for anime club again. hehe well cause i got this cool plushie keyring that looked like a tooth that was crying hehe it was cute. managed to get my friend to sign up hehe which was cool didnt expect him to join he doesnt even go monash either. lols just like me except nto from rmit but from dekin. lols anyways he really only joined to leech anime lols. what else is there that i did today oh after that went to a fish and chip store and boug food there and went home to eat. it was awesome. after that went to friends house and gamed till now lols. going to go home soon so better start packing up my stuff lols.
oh and for thoes wondering if i ate anything today i did. i had bacon and eggs for breaky. lunch i had fish and chips. and dinner i had rice and random stuff i dunno what ti was but i think we had tofu and some random meat thing. it was nice. even though i ate didnt eat much. what else.... oh got to get up early for tomorrow sigh hate getting up early like getting up at midday its so much better.
how was today was better than yesterday but its ok. didnt want to run into some people and didnt so it was all good. now just feeling down more again. thought i was getting over it but it seems i have a long way to go. at this rate might take the whole year. sigh...............................
well at least this means i can concentrate on uni now i dun have to worry so much about missing classes how i will get my work done. how will i do stuff in time well of course i will still worry about that but i wont have something taking up my time. like if i dis appear for a week i dun have someone annoyed at me for not being able to talk to them or if i dun have much time to spend with them. soo yay i dun have to worry about that.
oh i also wont be wid net for the next few days about 5 i think because new isp needs time to set up their connections. then might be a bit longer as we have to set our system also. so i wont be online or posting for the next few days unless i post on from uni. which i will try to do. i will miss u guys for the next few days i will understand what its like for les. i think i will call people randomly so be prepared for my calls lols whoo shal recieve my calls muahahahahahaha
any ways thats all for this post so night peoples
zac
ps i just rembered something i wanted to say. for all thoes people i've been talking to im sorry for being so annoying all the time and i want to say thank u u guys rock. dun want to say who u guys are in case someone else reads it and thinks that u were the person who said some stuff from my pervious posts. so i just want to say thank u to all of u and its helped out alot. first time i really talked about a problem to people. actually first really emotional problem i've actually had except wid family and wid my relation ship wid god. and thoes i dun really talk about. with this one there are alot of things i keep to my self and i havnt told u guys about yet. but being the person i am i dun really feel comfortable sharing everything i feel. just when im realyl emotional that i do. so thank u everyone.
after i set my time talbe i talked to a few peopel online
but not many then went back to sleep cause was going out during the day. went to buy stuff for out net work cousin bought ram was goign to buy a n series router so that no chance of there being no reception in out house. but we didnt get the router cause wasnt sure about some stuff. then we went to monash uni. went to return another router that we bought a while ago that we didnt want any more cause it wasnt strong enought. we never opened it so now we getting better one. but we have to buy somethign from comp now. probably goign to get a ipod not sure. or more head phones who know
any way after that went to vist mcac store. was way busy got free vit water from their stand walked around was fun. signed up for anime club again. hehe well cause i got this cool plushie keyring that looked like a tooth that was crying hehe it was cute. managed to get my friend to sign up hehe which was cool didnt expect him to join he doesnt even go monash either. lols just like me except nto from rmit but from dekin. lols anyways he really only joined to leech anime lols. what else is there that i did today oh after that went to a fish and chip store and boug food there and went home to eat. it was awesome. after that went to friends house and gamed till now lols. going to go home soon so better start packing up my stuff lols.
oh and for thoes wondering if i ate anything today i did. i had bacon and eggs for breaky. lunch i had fish and chips. and dinner i had rice and random stuff i dunno what ti was but i think we had tofu and some random meat thing. it was nice. even though i ate didnt eat much. what else.... oh got to get up early for tomorrow sigh hate getting up early like getting up at midday its so much better.
how was today was better than yesterday but its ok. didnt want to run into some people and didnt so it was all good. now just feeling down more again. thought i was getting over it but it seems i have a long way to go. at this rate might take the whole year. sigh...............................
well at least this means i can concentrate on uni now i dun have to worry so much about missing classes how i will get my work done. how will i do stuff in time well of course i will still worry about that but i wont have something taking up my time. like if i dis appear for a week i dun have someone annoyed at me for not being able to talk to them or if i dun have much time to spend with them. soo yay i dun have to worry about that.
oh i also wont be wid net for the next few days about 5 i think because new isp needs time to set up their connections. then might be a bit longer as we have to set our system also. so i wont be online or posting for the next few days unless i post on from uni. which i will try to do. i will miss u guys for the next few days i will understand what its like for les. i think i will call people randomly so be prepared for my calls lols whoo shal recieve my calls muahahahahahaha
any ways thats all for this post so night peoples
zac
ps i just rembered something i wanted to say. for all thoes people i've been talking to im sorry for being so annoying all the time and i want to say thank u u guys rock. dun want to say who u guys are in case someone else reads it and thinks that u were the person who said some stuff from my pervious posts. so i just want to say thank u to all of u and its helped out alot. first time i really talked about a problem to people. actually first really emotional problem i've actually had except wid family and wid my relation ship wid god. and thoes i dun really talk about. with this one there are alot of things i keep to my self and i havnt told u guys about yet. but being the person i am i dun really feel comfortable sharing everything i feel. just when im realyl emotional that i do. so thank u everyone.
Monday, February 23, 2009
today's crappyness
hey peoples. today's blog isnt going to be exciting, didnt have the best day at all. it was probably one of the worst days i've had in a while. firstly didnt get much sleep at all last night i went to sleep at like 1 or 2 am and then got up at like 7am to catch bus for work. so thats what 5 hours sleep? not enough for me i usually need at least 8+ i sleep alot. then when i got on the bus bumped into someone i really didnt want to see yet. me being tired from 5 hours was yawning wid my eyes closed after i sat donw and when i opened my eyes she was there. meh not like it could be helped. so yeah chatted a bit but felt really akward so wasnt saying much plus being tired wanted to sleep. actually planned to sleep on the bus so that i wouldnt be to tired for work and make a mistake. but couldnt sleep cause it would be rude to do that when she was sitting right beside me. thought i was over it a bit more than this but seems like im not. seeing her just makes me down. might start following my dad in the morning and get dropped off at a station. sigh oh well thats just life i guess.
after getting off the bus at chaddy felt sick so lucky i got there early so i could sit down and feel a bit better but didnt help much was feeling sick the whole time at work. at work we were doing stocktake which is a pain. we had to scan gold this time so it was like 3000 units of scanning. so bothersome. so sitting there scanning items one after another gah all u want to do is sleep. didnt help that i was tired from the night before. so was yawning the whole time and feeling sick. not sure how i got sick but i think i know what made me feel sick. anyways didnt feel like doing much. didnt feel like eating also so didnt just had boost. which is pretty much all i had for the day except for a banana which i ate before i left the house. yeah so was going to go celine's house to tell her to eat but couldn't do that since me myself wasnt eating. so just went ova to see how she was going. which was good. so many people in their place couldnt fit them all lols. some down stairs some upstairs lols. and sorry if i was bothering u guys when i came. gomen.
sigh everything juse seems so complicated. at home nwo still dun feel like eating even though stomach is making noises. meh might get a snack to calm my stomach see what i have. lols i cant belive celine and amanda's place has exit signs lols. its so fail. why would u need exit signs in a house? i mean .......... there are liek two ways in and out how can u miss that?... so wierd. any way thats probably going to be post for the day dunno what else to post. i could just ranble on now and not post anythign important and just talk about posting or random crap to take up space and make u peopels read stuff that u dun need to but am i that evil? lols heheh e
i really feel like doing that now but cant think of enough random thigns to say meh
wonder what im going to do tomorrow..... meh
well thats for the night
wait for the next blog when eva it comes
zac
after getting off the bus at chaddy felt sick so lucky i got there early so i could sit down and feel a bit better but didnt help much was feeling sick the whole time at work. at work we were doing stocktake which is a pain. we had to scan gold this time so it was like 3000 units of scanning. so bothersome. so sitting there scanning items one after another gah all u want to do is sleep. didnt help that i was tired from the night before. so was yawning the whole time and feeling sick. not sure how i got sick but i think i know what made me feel sick. anyways didnt feel like doing much. didnt feel like eating also so didnt just had boost. which is pretty much all i had for the day except for a banana which i ate before i left the house. yeah so was going to go celine's house to tell her to eat but couldn't do that since me myself wasnt eating. so just went ova to see how she was going. which was good. so many people in their place couldnt fit them all lols. some down stairs some upstairs lols. and sorry if i was bothering u guys when i came. gomen.
sigh everything juse seems so complicated. at home nwo still dun feel like eating even though stomach is making noises. meh might get a snack to calm my stomach see what i have. lols i cant belive celine and amanda's place has exit signs lols. its so fail. why would u need exit signs in a house? i mean .......... there are liek two ways in and out how can u miss that?... so wierd. any way thats probably going to be post for the day dunno what else to post. i could just ranble on now and not post anythign important and just talk about posting or random crap to take up space and make u peopels read stuff that u dun need to but am i that evil? lols heheh e
i really feel like doing that now but cant think of enough random thigns to say meh
wonder what im going to do tomorrow..... meh
well thats for the night
wait for the next blog when eva it comes
zac
Sunday, February 22, 2009
the com gaming and singing old people?????
lol today was an awesome day well it really started out as yesterday. yester day was les's farewell which was fun at la pocheta cant spell but meh. i ordered a medium pizza wid meatlovers and mexicana which was awesomenesss. then i shared a dessert wid phe-kun hehe it was yummy!! hehe and no phe no yaoi stuff never not happening. that reminds me im never doing that character that they came up wid for me that night never. if its used in a yaoi thing too oftern then no never going to happen. never eva. grrr stupid people and their ideas. .......... only cosplay aproved by me thats zac not anyone else but zac ZAC is getting done im the one making the costume so nooooo. unless u have someone make the costume that u want me to do and the costume i want to do them maybe thats a maybe i will do it. but noo cross dressing or cosplaying as characters that cross dress. yeah well the night was fun and all lots of fun. by the end of the night i think the place wanted to kick us out we were like sitting there for a few hours with out buying anythign after we finished so lols. any way we finished it was an awesome night and we wont get to see les for ages T.T nooo hopefully we see her during oweek and for puri every sem.
next part of the day lols well after i got home from les's farewell i went to friends house to play ALANTICA!!! lols im pretty much addicted to the game lols all ym spare time alantica lols well thats pretty much what i was doing the whole time lols. so i stayed ova at his place and played all day today it was aawesome sitting and chatting and gaming all day. so much fun. had luch played some more then dinner time.... his mum had some of her friends over dinner was good and all. we went back up to his room after dinner and continued gaming all good and all. then we hear music.....
loud music......
kareoke music.....
and then we hear singing...... and it was gahhhhh abba, sound of music, old 60s and 70s music gahh old people singing ...... i dun get it why do old people like kareoke its like gahhh
i mean kareoke is fine and all but why why why why do old people liek it? i mean its good and all when u do it wid a group of friends in a inclosed room and no one but the people in the room know how baddly u make a fool of your selves. but old people...... u guys have kids i mean think about your kids they can hear u upstairs with their friends while u guys are down stairs singing your hearts out off key and making a fool out of your selves.
i mean what brings a 40 or 50 year old person to sing kareoke? i have never quite worked it out, why old people like to sing. is it some past time that they never got todo? is it some thign that was extreamly popular when they were young that they could never do cause they didnt have money? and now that they are old succesful people they can sing their hearts out? i dun get it. is it something that old people can do with their friends because they cant get out and about anymore and this is the most "hip" thing they can do since they cant do anythign else any more? i dunno i really wonder why it is so popular. what bothers me more is that nearly every asian aunty and uncle has a kareoke set in their house not sing star or rock back or gutair heros but the old typle kareoke machine that u plug into the tv that uses cd's with backing track words and random vids from around the world taken in the late 70's. why do they all have one? what is so popular about it? who know its the attraction of the parents generations and the kareoke seems to be living on. parents had kareoke we have gaming and gutair heros, i wonder what the next generation will have to entertain them for their times to come.
thats all for this post so night since its like 2.30 am nights
zac
next part of the day lols well after i got home from les's farewell i went to friends house to play ALANTICA!!! lols im pretty much addicted to the game lols all ym spare time alantica lols well thats pretty much what i was doing the whole time lols. so i stayed ova at his place and played all day today it was aawesome sitting and chatting and gaming all day. so much fun. had luch played some more then dinner time.... his mum had some of her friends over dinner was good and all. we went back up to his room after dinner and continued gaming all good and all. then we hear music.....
loud music......
kareoke music.....
and then we hear singing...... and it was gahhhhh abba, sound of music, old 60s and 70s music gahh old people singing ...... i dun get it why do old people like kareoke its like gahhh
i mean kareoke is fine and all but why why why why do old people liek it? i mean its good and all when u do it wid a group of friends in a inclosed room and no one but the people in the room know how baddly u make a fool of your selves. but old people...... u guys have kids i mean think about your kids they can hear u upstairs with their friends while u guys are down stairs singing your hearts out off key and making a fool out of your selves.
i mean what brings a 40 or 50 year old person to sing kareoke? i have never quite worked it out, why old people like to sing. is it some past time that they never got todo? is it some thign that was extreamly popular when they were young that they could never do cause they didnt have money? and now that they are old succesful people they can sing their hearts out? i dun get it. is it something that old people can do with their friends because they cant get out and about anymore and this is the most "hip" thing they can do since they cant do anythign else any more? i dunno i really wonder why it is so popular. what bothers me more is that nearly every asian aunty and uncle has a kareoke set in their house not sing star or rock back or gutair heros but the old typle kareoke machine that u plug into the tv that uses cd's with backing track words and random vids from around the world taken in the late 70's. why do they all have one? what is so popular about it? who know its the attraction of the parents generations and the kareoke seems to be living on. parents had kareoke we have gaming and gutair heros, i wonder what the next generation will have to entertain them for their times to come.
thats all for this post so night since its like 2.30 am nights
zac
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
randomness and mousetrap!
hehe post for today! well today was a fun day i went to scorptech in the morning to pick up my graphics card. finally got it back, well i didnt actually get it back i got a new one they replaced the old one with a different one as it was aterfacting. if u dun know what it means it was screwing up lols. well the new one rocks i its slightly better than the one i had. so now that i got my card back woots gaming galore!! lols well not really just glad to have all of my com back.
after that i went to friends house wid the com and put the card in and played till like 5 which was awesome. playing a online game called alantica. games awesome some people dis it because its a turn based mmo but the turn based thing is alot better than the mindless grinding that u have to do in normal mmo's so i dun mind means u need a bit of intelegence to play instead of just mindlessly clicking on a monster.
ohh onto the extreamly cool part of the day i caught a mouse!!! lols about three nights ago i heard a mouse in the room but thought i was just hearing things then the day after i saw it. yup i saw a mouse inside my house. so yester day we put a mouse trap out and when i checked it today this is what i saw. hehehehe
so yes i caught a mouse hehe. well its kinda freaky seeing it though cause it still looks like its alive but wid a bar through it. and then we think there are more in the house cause like just then we heard more squeeks so more traps are going down today. the mice actualyl ate through motar in the wall and into our house so there were three holes where they came in. we blocked these holes off wid cement but i got a feeling that they will eat their way through it. just to be save traps are abundant in our house tonight just hope that jo my little dog dun find the traps and try to eat the bait and get his tonge snaped.
thats all for today hehe
after that i went to friends house wid the com and put the card in and played till like 5 which was awesome. playing a online game called alantica. games awesome some people dis it because its a turn based mmo but the turn based thing is alot better than the mindless grinding that u have to do in normal mmo's so i dun mind means u need a bit of intelegence to play instead of just mindlessly clicking on a monster.
ohh onto the extreamly cool part of the day i caught a mouse!!! lols about three nights ago i heard a mouse in the room but thought i was just hearing things then the day after i saw it. yup i saw a mouse inside my house. so yester day we put a mouse trap out and when i checked it today this is what i saw. hehehehe
so yes i caught a mouse hehe. well its kinda freaky seeing it though cause it still looks like its alive but wid a bar through it. and then we think there are more in the house cause like just then we heard more squeeks so more traps are going down today. the mice actualyl ate through motar in the wall and into our house so there were three holes where they came in. we blocked these holes off wid cement but i got a feeling that they will eat their way through it. just to be save traps are abundant in our house tonight just hope that jo my little dog dun find the traps and try to eat the bait and get his tonge snaped.
thats all for today hehe
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
my blogging
hmm i've worked out when i blog there are 3 main times i blog. these times are
* when im sad, depressed or angry
* when im happy and have something good to say
* and when im bored and have nothing to do
well there is another time i blog which is when i forgotten to blog for like ages and i post a new blog but thats like yeah. just random come under boredom.
oh so when im sad, depressed or angry my posts are likely to bag the hell out of someone or something when im really annoyed. if i offend people wid what i write im venting so sorry but its going to be there and well its my vent so its not going to change. most of what i write is to clear my mind and mostly to let me just calm down.
when im happy its about whats happened just random stuff that happend to make me happy and whats going on. lotsa different stuff goes into thoes posts. but mostly its just random ness that goes on and on.
and when im bored its just random stuff that happened during the day or the few days before maybe it will contain random stuff as well like little stuff that bugs me or little things that was cool but mostly its just randomness. usually these posts are shorter.
i also realised there were more people than i thought that read my blog. i thought that like nearly no one read it but it seems like there are quite a few that do and i say thank u and sorry bout my really negative depressive posts that i've been posting lately just going through alot of stuff atm and yeah getting ova it now still a long way to go but i think im about half way there to getting ova it. removed the pic that was stuck on my phone so i guess thats a sign im getting ova it. yups
anyway yesterday was awesome !!! organized a lan at my house but ended up not being a lan exactly but more of just a chill out session wid friends watching like one whole season of a tv series and wall -e so it was fun. hehe though next time i have to organize better like what games we are goign to play where everyone is going to set up what we were all going to do what we were going to have for lunch and how everything is organized lols. but it was still fun wid alot more school friends i havnt seen in ages there so it was fun maybe next time just having a chill out session instead of a lan not as long.
hehe well this is the end of this post so laters peoples
zac
Saturday, January 31, 2009
hmm its ova
woot the sickness is ova and so is the heat wave well mostly. i think my sick ness had something to do wid the heat as well i had a stupid head ache every day it was hot and i have one right now but its not so bad.
i wanna take a poll the question is if a guy/girl tries to steal another guys gf/bf is that person the scum of society? or how bad do u think it is for a person to do that. i know my position its one of hate utter disgust for a person like that. partily cause a guy has done it to me and well i hate him abosultly hate him. the girl? annoyed at still very much annoyed at. falling for a guy like that and continiously defending him when it is obvious he went after her while we were going out. and not seeing how much of a player he is. oh yeah also found out alot of people think he's a player. not telling who but yeah alotttttt. my feelings for her have they gone away not sure. but know that love and hate are interlinked and like one can turn into the other some how. so maybe i hate her now...... hmm nope not hate but very strong annoyance and not much feelings of kind ness towards her atm.
anyway back to my poll write your answer and any feeligns about the the whole guy steal gf from another guy issue in the comments and ill tally it up in a later blog.
thankies people laters.
zac
i wanna take a poll the question is if a guy/girl tries to steal another guys gf/bf is that person the scum of society? or how bad do u think it is for a person to do that. i know my position its one of hate utter disgust for a person like that. partily cause a guy has done it to me and well i hate him abosultly hate him. the girl? annoyed at still very much annoyed at. falling for a guy like that and continiously defending him when it is obvious he went after her while we were going out. and not seeing how much of a player he is. oh yeah also found out alot of people think he's a player. not telling who but yeah alotttttt. my feelings for her have they gone away not sure. but know that love and hate are interlinked and like one can turn into the other some how. so maybe i hate her now...... hmm nope not hate but very strong annoyance and not much feelings of kind ness towards her atm.
anyway back to my poll write your answer and any feeligns about the the whole guy steal gf from another guy issue in the comments and ill tally it up in a later blog.
thankies people laters.
zac
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
sickness
sigh i got sick yesterday sigh. went to wedding and was feeling kinda sick then but was like not that bad then when i got home i felt worse and like slept the whole day. then when i was sleeping at night still feeling sick couldnt sleep properly had to sleep a certain way either wise my body ached like no tomorrow. still feeling the sickness now sigh dun like being sick especially during the hollies. im starting to feel better anyway so hopefully im all better by tomorrow.
any way its been 27days............................. how am i feeling? i dunno i guess im feeling better but at the same time feeling worse who knows. so far im getting ova it all probably need another month or two before i get ova it totally. deff cant go back to the way things were before will see what happens.
any way its been 27days............................. how am i feeling? i dunno i guess im feeling better but at the same time feeling worse who knows. so far im getting ova it all probably need another month or two before i get ova it totally. deff cant go back to the way things were before will see what happens.
Friday, January 23, 2009
lamentations
is there a point in hoping?
is there a reason to trust?
is there a reason to believe what she says?
is there a reason to listen?
there is no point to hope
i dun think i can trust
believing is not possible
and listening is just to hard
can i still be friends?
at the moment i think not
what i hear is not always true
what i see is misleading
what u say to me is one thing
to another it is different
u lie to me so we can be friends
but once its found out i cant trust again
do i want to understand u?
no i dun really want to
if what i think is true
u will feel pain soon
and i dun really give the dam
well maybe i might a little bit
but if u want to be friends again
it might happen all depends on u
is there a reason to trust?
is there a reason to believe what she says?
is there a reason to listen?
there is no point to hope
i dun think i can trust
believing is not possible
and listening is just to hard
can i still be friends?
at the moment i think not
what i hear is not always true
what i see is misleading
what u say to me is one thing
to another it is different
u lie to me so we can be friends
but once its found out i cant trust again
do i want to understand u?
no i dun really want to
if what i think is true
u will feel pain soon
and i dun really give the dam
well maybe i might a little bit
but if u want to be friends again
it might happen all depends on u
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