morning madness and gossip

hey peoples today im going to write my blog as it happenes since i dun have the internet for the next few days. about 5 working days i think. so for the next five days the blog will be different and have different sections. i will post as soon as i get a connection to the net and it will seem wierd as days might be broken up into sections or be in like morning afternoon and night parts or there will be like 2 or 3 days blogs in one post. so see what happens.

sooo day 1 without internet.
25/2/2009
so yes tod ay woke up late. was susposed to wake up at 6.30 so i could take a 7. 30 bus to city for my balloting thing. Because i woke up late at 7 am instead of the 6.30 i planned i had to get ready in 15 mins. shower, change brush teeth everything. managed it but to make it worse i was thinking to much during this whole time so i started to feel sick again. Ended up dry hurling (vomiting wid out anythign coming out) for like 5 mins. so didnt feel good. Because of that had to run to bus stop to catch bus. now on the bus and not feelign much better actualyl feeling much worse must have been the running. Dunno if i will eat to day as im not exactly in the mood to eat i'll try to eat some thing but probably wont eat much. here i woudl say if celine eats i will eat also but i really dun feel like eating..... meh

well today im susposed to ballot for the studio i want to be in which is kinda cool cause u kinda get to choose what kind of thing u will design for a semester. wonder what i will get into. i will probably go for the oens that have better times for me and sound good cauase i dun want 8 pm lectures or tutes cause its just so hard for me to get home. it really sucks. but hopefully there are some that are during the day and i dun ahve to go to night lectures. which will be cool. after that i plan to go to the plushie store not sure if i will go though cause might not have time to go. as i want to go monash to vist people. but even that is a mayve as i dun want to run into someone there. will see depends on what happens today.

thats it for what happened before 8 am and what i was thinking at the time.
thank u

part 2

lols its only an hour later but im on a com at uni thought i better post it before i forget so i did. what else has changed since an hour ago? not much lols i thought mroe on the train didnt make me feel much better. and to top it off my r4 seems to be having some troubles so might need to get my other r4 and chips off yvonne. dunno if i will get them back.... meh oh well if i dun i'll jsut go buy another one see what happenes. hoepfully i wont need to. what else.... umm i have no idea what is going to happen today. its raining outside which sucks hope its not raining at monash wither wise it will be another wet day like last year.

u know how i say i dun like gossip but it seems like i partake in it as well. i know its bad and i try not to. but it seems to happen. truthfully i dun liek it, its how rumors are spread and how they get worse. something small can turn into somethign big and move around turning people against each other. personally i dun like it. but i seem to make it worse. how do i stop it? im not sure. i've thought about it and only a few things have come to my mind. not talk about other peoples problems. thats a given but its hard as well not to talk if your not sure how to give advice to that person. the onyl way i can think of to get around the gossip spreading is to talk to some one else that the person who u are trying to help has talked to that way only the people close to that person know. though the other problem wid gossip is when two people are fighting and one side or both sides want to tell everyone. when its like that lots of peopel find out and take up a side and then one side is seen in a bad light and people wont hear out the other side. what can people do? i think hear both sides out. but that is always easier said than done. i guess what i want to say is gossip is bad it breaks friends up, it breaks couples up, it breaks, groups up. not much can be done for what has happened to people already but what can be done if no one tries to fix the problem and just leaves? then everyone just gets broken up.

so thats it for the morning its now 9.18 am. i will post again later in the day if possible probably edit this post and put iti on the end. if not i will post it tomorrow or the day after. all depends on what happens

part 3

lols im actually at home now lols. nets still working people from telstra who were susposed to come over didnt show up so we still have our net. lols yay!! so it wont be the first day wid out net hahaha. oh well maybe it might be tomorrow. anyways onto the next part of the day.
soo i sat through the baloting lecture. it was good there were a quite a few good times and ones that i wanted to do. i really want to do the green roof one cause its so awaesome. mainly because it has somethign to do with my last studio. after that i went to a friends house. wanted to see it since she just move place. ahaha its so cool its a town house with three floors. lols and one of the floors has mirrors along the whole wall looks so cool. sorry phe seeing friends place takes precedent over plushies. so didnt go plushie store T.T maybe another day i will go. but its ok hmm what else. oh then i went to monash and hung out with my friends from MCAC there. saw another friend and ended up joining asean wid him. i so dun know why i joined not going to use the stuff or go to the events probably. unless others make me go or i can be bothered going. hmm... dunno what to talk about oh time talbe is awesome ness got mondays off so that means probably going to be spending that time at monash or working. might have wednesday off also well im susposed to but there was a clash with my classes i have two on thursday at the same time so apparently one of them is going to be changed but dunno when to so will have to see. probably on monday. i also find out the studio im in on monday as well. hopefully its a good one.

hmm what did i eat today... i had a spring roll today and will need to eat dinner because im at home and mum will make me. hehe food is not a problem u can survive on sugar!! wahahaha
and noooo im not doing a sailor moon fuka crossplay its never gonna happen. i have no idea how it spread from a joke at a dinner to everybody............ its suprisingly fast way to fast for that to happen. its actually scary...

well thats the blog for the day hopefully the tech person will come tomorrow and change us over. even though it means no net. it means fast get the new net wid awsome limit.

zac

com parts and avoidance

today was a good and bad day started out crap cause i had to wake up at 5.30 to do my one subject where i had to allocate a tute. kinda stupid the only tutorial i acttually have to book a slot for and i have to get up that early to do it. but managed to get a good time like i got into the tute that i wanted and my friends were goign to go for but seems liek they got into a different one and now the one friend i have in it is going to change to the other tute to be with the others. meh i dun mind so much just hard to make new friends when the groups are already defined by the time others have spent together already. but its ok since i shoudl know a few of the other people i hope in my class.
after i set my time talbe i talked to a few peopel online
but not many then went back to sleep cause was going out during the day. went to buy stuff for out net work cousin bought ram was goign to buy a n series router so that no chance of there being no reception in out house. but we didnt get the router cause wasnt sure about some stuff. then we went to monash uni. went to return another router that we bought a while ago that we didnt want any more cause it wasnt strong enought. we never opened it so now we getting better one. but we have to buy somethign from comp now. probably goign to get a ipod not sure. or more head phones who know

any way after that went to vist mcac store. was way busy got free vit water from their stand walked around was fun. signed up for anime club again. hehe well cause i got this cool plushie keyring that looked like a tooth that was crying hehe it was cute. managed to get my friend to sign up hehe which was cool didnt expect him to join he doesnt even go monash either. lols just like me except nto from rmit but from dekin. lols anyways he really only joined to leech anime lols. what else is there that i did today oh after that went to a fish and chip store and boug food there and went home to eat. it was awesome. after that went to friends house and gamed till now lols. going to go home soon so better start packing up my stuff lols.

oh and for thoes wondering if i ate anything today i did. i had bacon and eggs for breaky. lunch i had fish and chips. and dinner i had rice and random stuff i dunno what ti was but i think we had tofu and some random meat thing. it was nice. even though i ate didnt eat much. what else.... oh got to get up early for tomorrow sigh hate getting up early like getting up at midday its so much better.

how was today was better than yesterday but its ok. didnt want to run into some people and didnt so it was all good. now just feeling down more again. thought i was getting over it but it seems i have a long way to go. at this rate might take the whole year. sigh...............................
well at least this means i can concentrate on uni now i dun have to worry so much about missing classes how i will get my work done. how will i do stuff in time well of course i will still worry about that but i wont have something taking up my time. like if i dis appear for a week i dun have someone annoyed at me for not being able to talk to them or if i dun have much time to spend with them. soo yay i dun have to worry about that.


oh i also wont be wid net for the next few days about 5 i think because new isp needs time to set up their connections. then might be a bit longer as we have to set our system also. so i wont be online or posting for the next few days unless i post on from uni. which i will try to do. i will miss u guys for the next few days i will understand what its like for les. i think i will call people randomly so be prepared for my calls lols whoo shal recieve my calls muahahahahahaha

any ways thats all for this post so night peoples
zac

ps i just rembered something i wanted to say. for all thoes people i've been talking to im sorry for being so annoying all the time and i want to say thank u u guys rock. dun want to say who u guys are in case someone else reads it and thinks that u were the person who said some stuff from my pervious posts. so i just want to say thank u to all of u and its helped out alot. first time i really talked about a problem to people. actually first really emotional problem i've actually had except wid family and wid my relation ship wid god. and thoes i dun really talk about. with this one there are alot of things i keep to my self and i havnt told u guys about yet. but being the person i am i dun really feel comfortable sharing everything i feel. just when im realyl emotional that i do. so thank u everyone.

today's crappyness

hey peoples. today's blog isnt going to be exciting, didnt have the best day at all. it was probably one of the worst days i've had in a while. firstly didnt get much sleep at all last night i went to sleep at like 1 or 2 am and then got up at like 7am to catch bus for work. so thats what 5 hours sleep? not enough for me i usually need at least 8+ i sleep alot. then when i got on the bus bumped into someone i really didnt want to see yet. me being tired from 5 hours was yawning wid my eyes closed after i sat donw and when i opened my eyes she was there. meh not like it could be helped. so yeah chatted a bit but felt really akward so wasnt saying much plus being tired wanted to sleep. actually planned to sleep on the bus so that i wouldnt be to tired for work and make a mistake. but couldnt sleep cause it would be rude to do that when she was sitting right beside me. thought i was over it a bit more than this but seems like im not. seeing her just makes me down. might start following my dad in the morning and get dropped off at a station. sigh oh well thats just life i guess.

after getting off the bus at chaddy felt sick so lucky i got there early so i could sit down and feel a bit better but didnt help much was feeling sick the whole time at work. at work we were doing stocktake which is a pain. we had to scan gold this time so it was like 3000 units of scanning. so bothersome. so sitting there scanning items one after another gah all u want to do is sleep. didnt help that i was tired from the night before. so was yawning the whole time and feeling sick. not sure how i got sick but i think i know what made me feel sick. anyways didnt feel like doing much. didnt feel like eating also so didnt just had boost. which is pretty much all i had for the day except for a banana which i ate before i left the house. yeah so was going to go celine's house to tell her to eat but couldn't do that since me myself wasnt eating. so just went ova to see how she was going. which was good. so many people in their place couldnt fit them all lols. some down stairs some upstairs lols. and sorry if i was bothering u guys when i came. gomen.

sigh everything juse seems so complicated. at home nwo still dun feel like eating even though stomach is making noises. meh might get a snack to calm my stomach see what i have. lols i cant belive celine and amanda's place has exit signs lols. its so fail. why would u need exit signs in a house? i mean .......... there are liek two ways in and out how can u miss that?... so wierd. any way thats probably going to be post for the day dunno what else to post. i could just ranble on now and not post anythign important and just talk about posting or random crap to take up space and make u peopels read stuff that u dun need to but am i that evil? lols heheh e
i really feel like doing that now but cant think of enough random thigns to say meh
wonder what im going to do tomorrow..... meh
well thats for the night
wait for the next blog when eva it comes
zac

the com gaming and singing old people?????

lol today was an awesome day well it really started out as yesterday. yester day was les's farewell which was fun at la pocheta cant spell but meh. i ordered a medium pizza wid meatlovers and mexicana which was awesomenesss. then i shared a dessert wid phe-kun hehe it was yummy!! hehe and no phe no yaoi stuff never not happening. that reminds me im never doing that character that they came up wid for me that night never. if its used in a yaoi thing too oftern then no never going to happen. never eva. grrr stupid people and their ideas. .......... only cosplay aproved by me thats zac not anyone else but zac ZAC is getting done im the one making the costume so nooooo. unless u have someone make the costume that u want me to do and the costume i want to do them maybe thats a maybe i will do it. but noo cross dressing or cosplaying as characters that cross dress. yeah well the night was fun and all lots of fun. by the end of the night i think the place wanted to kick us out we were like sitting there for a few hours with out buying anythign after we finished so lols. any way we finished it was an awesome night and we wont get to see les for ages T.T nooo hopefully we see her during oweek and for puri every sem.

next part of the day lols well after i got home from les's farewell i went to friends house to play ALANTICA!!! lols im pretty much addicted to the game lols all ym spare time alantica lols well thats pretty much what i was doing the whole time lols. so i stayed ova at his place and played all day today it was aawesome sitting and chatting and gaming all day. so much fun. had luch played some more then dinner time.... his mum had some of her friends over dinner was good and all. we went back up to his room after dinner and continued gaming all good and all. then we hear music.....
loud music......
kareoke music.....
and then we hear singing...... and it was gahhhhh abba, sound of music, old 60s and 70s music gahh old people singing ...... i dun get it why do old people like kareoke its like gahhh
i mean kareoke is fine and all but why why why why do old people liek it? i mean its good and all when u do it wid a group of friends in a inclosed room and no one but the people in the room know how baddly u make a fool of your selves. but old people...... u guys have kids i mean think about your kids they can hear u upstairs with their friends while u guys are down stairs singing your hearts out off key and making a fool out of your selves.

i mean what brings a 40 or 50 year old person to sing kareoke? i have never quite worked it out, why old people like to sing. is it some past time that they never got todo? is it some thign that was extreamly popular when they were young that they could never do cause they didnt have money? and now that they are old succesful people they can sing their hearts out? i dun get it. is it something that old people can do with their friends because they cant get out and about anymore and this is the most "hip" thing they can do since they cant do anythign else any more? i dunno i really wonder why it is so popular. what bothers me more is that nearly every asian aunty and uncle has a kareoke set in their house not sing star or rock back or gutair heros but the old typle kareoke machine that u plug into the tv that uses cd's with backing track words and random vids from around the world taken in the late 70's. why do they all have one? what is so popular about it? who know its the attraction of the parents generations and the kareoke seems to be living on. parents had kareoke we have gaming and gutair heros, i wonder what the next generation will have to entertain them for their times to come.

thats all for this post so night since its like 2.30 am nights
zac

randomness and mousetrap!

hehe post for today! well today was a fun day i went to scorptech in the morning to pick up my graphics card. finally got it back, well i didnt actually get it back i got a new one they replaced the old one with a different one as it was aterfacting. if u dun know what it means it was screwing up lols. well the new one rocks i its slightly better than the one i had. so now that i got my card back woots gaming galore!! lols well not really just glad to have all of my com back.

after that i went to friends house wid the com and put the card in and played till like 5 which was awesome. playing a online game called alantica. games awesome some people dis it because its a turn based mmo but the turn based thing is alot better than the mindless grinding that u have to do in normal mmo's so i dun mind means u need a bit of intelegence to play instead of just mindlessly clicking on a monster.

ohh onto the extreamly cool part of the day i caught a mouse!!! lols about three nights ago i heard a mouse in the room but thought i was just hearing things then the day after i saw it. yup i saw a mouse inside my house. so yester day we put a mouse trap out and when i checked it today this is what i saw. hehehehe

so yes i caught a mouse hehe. well its kinda freaky seeing it though cause it still looks like its alive but wid a bar through it. and then we think there are more in the house cause like just then we heard more squeeks so more traps are going down today. the mice actualyl ate through motar in the wall and into our house so there were three holes where they came in. we blocked these holes off wid cement but i got a feeling that they will eat their way through it. just to be save traps are abundant in our house tonight just hope that jo my little dog dun find the traps and try to eat the bait and get his tonge snaped.

thats all for today hehe

my blogging

hmm i've worked out when i blog there are 3 main times i blog. these times are 

* when im sad, depressed or angry

* when im happy and have something good to say

* and when im bored and have nothing to do

well there is another time i blog which is when i forgotten to blog for like ages and i post a new blog but thats like yeah. just random come under boredom.

oh so when im sad, depressed or angry my posts are likely to bag the hell out of someone or something when im really annoyed. if i offend people wid what i write im venting so sorry but its going to be there and well its my vent so its not going to change. most of what i write is to clear my mind and mostly to let me just calm down. 

when im happy its about whats happened just random stuff that happend to make me happy and whats going on. lotsa different stuff goes into thoes posts. but mostly its just random ness that goes on and on. 

and when im bored its just random stuff that happened during the day or the few days before maybe it will contain random stuff as well like little stuff that bugs me or little things that was cool but mostly its just randomness. usually these posts are shorter.

i also realised there were more people than i thought that read my blog. i thought that like nearly no one read it but it seems like there are quite a few that do and i say thank u and sorry bout my really negative depressive posts that i've been posting lately just going through alot of stuff atm and yeah getting ova it now still a long way to go but i think im about half way there to getting ova it. removed the pic that was stuck on my phone so i guess thats a sign im getting ova it. yups 

anyway yesterday was awesome !!! organized a lan at my house but ended up not being a lan exactly but more of just a chill out session wid friends watching like one whole season of a tv series and wall -e so it was fun. hehe though next time i have to organize better like what games we are goign to play where everyone is going to set up what we were all going to do what we were going to have for lunch and how everything is organized lols. but it was still fun wid alot more school friends i havnt seen in ages there so it was fun maybe next time just having a chill out session instead of a lan not as long. 

hehe well this is the end of this post so laters peoples 

zac