carsh

yeah i crashed into someone on monday........... yeah so like both the cars are write offs the other guy is in hospital and im going to court. lols nah not that bad but i did get in a crash. only a little one no one hurt and could hardly tell the damage to the cars. like my car bit of green paint gone his car? could hardly tell just a bit of paint from our car on his. and the stupid guy is like triyn gto milk me for all the money he can get grrr.... so need to get pics of the damage from him. in case he's charging for things that i didnt cause.

anyway it totally freaked me out dunno what im susposed to do and dad is like... not fussed about it hes like it happens so it happens. and like yeah. just hope i dun have to pay that much cause the money i have to pay him i could have used for somethign else dam it.

first time driving that car also very differnt to what im used to the car is longer and less control well for me it is less control. it felt so diff that i was going faster than expected oh well. its done and its done. well my comp is over but next com has started and have so many assignments to go. sigh last year i was MIA for like 2 months this year i think i will be mia for longer liek 3 or 4 months

lols sleeping at uni

lols well tonight im staying over at uni. hehehe its goign to be so crappy staying over night to work on my project butthers so much to do dunno how much we are goign to get done. hope i win i want that 2k prize. well i'll only get $666 of it but who cares its money lols. well anyway what else is goign on? not much. oh sorry for not posting been busy and nothign i wanted to post about here well there has been stuff but didnt want to post it cause of stuff yeah.... anyway not much time for anythign any more lots of time on this project and work. so dun have time to bum wid people. though i do bum wid friends from mcac alot. during most of my free time. so for thoes from church or hs that want to meet up wid me msg me if your at monash or in the city cuase i'll be at one or the other. lols. hmm well thats all so thats it for the night lols. i might updat what its liek to sleep at uni as well probably wake up wid sores all over again. its painful lols. anyway back to doing hw now lols laters and wait for the next post.

ohh ps. i love.................................................................................................. foooodddddd but havnt eaten much today. had a melon bread and a sausage bun from bread top. for lunch lots of chocolate. for dinner havnt eaten yet but prob eat nandos and have two bags of chips also here hehehe so junk food lols.

hmm chruch

well today went to church. as alot of u know im christian. well most of u know i think and if u dun know now u know. well i havnt' been going recently well for about a year or two. i realized that i actually missed church. the reason i stoped going was cause i felt out of place and awkard. it felt like i didnt belong there. but then when i wasnt at church it felt like i was missing something. i know i belive in God. even when i didnt go church i always asked God what to do and to look after me. i was strugling with what i believed in but i realied that i do believe in him. but i didnt know how much i wanted to commit to him and how i wa ssusposed to do that. in church i felt left out and that no one noticed me. being me i dun think very highly of myself. part of the reason why i felt left out and didnt belong was that there wernt that many people around my age. and the ones that were were heading in a diff direction. i dunno why but prob me just being insecure. in curch there are tight knit groups and i felt like i didnt belong in any of thoes. but now that i went back after a long time it seems diff now. maybe cause i went wid a friend who hasnt been before made it feel diff or my atitude to it changed. now it dun seem so much as iff im left out or anything. and that i feel more comfortable. maybe tis God chalenging me to move past my insecurities and stuff. i still feel insecure there. but it feels more welcoming. and i realised also that people did notice that i was gone. they did see that i wasnt coming. and they did look out for me. they did pray for me. and i tank then for that they they cared about me that much. thank u guys.

well after that rambling now. what happened during the day... well church obviously. met sharon there lols didnt expect to see her there. she was there for free food and came wid her friend. after that she was going to city. it was cool to chat to her. never really chatted to her. but was cool. what else after that went home. didnt do much except watch anime and play games. now doing hw. but not going to be doing that for much longer, hmm what to do lols