hmm chruch

well today went to church. as alot of u know im christian. well most of u know i think and if u dun know now u know. well i havnt' been going recently well for about a year or two. i realized that i actually missed church. the reason i stoped going was cause i felt out of place and awkard. it felt like i didnt belong there. but then when i wasnt at church it felt like i was missing something. i know i belive in God. even when i didnt go church i always asked God what to do and to look after me. i was strugling with what i believed in but i realied that i do believe in him. but i didnt know how much i wanted to commit to him and how i wa ssusposed to do that. in church i felt left out and that no one noticed me. being me i dun think very highly of myself. part of the reason why i felt left out and didnt belong was that there wernt that many people around my age. and the ones that were were heading in a diff direction. i dunno why but prob me just being insecure. in curch there are tight knit groups and i felt like i didnt belong in any of thoes. but now that i went back after a long time it seems diff now. maybe cause i went wid a friend who hasnt been before made it feel diff or my atitude to it changed. now it dun seem so much as iff im left out or anything. and that i feel more comfortable. maybe tis God chalenging me to move past my insecurities and stuff. i still feel insecure there. but it feels more welcoming. and i realised also that people did notice that i was gone. they did see that i wasnt coming. and they did look out for me. they did pray for me. and i tank then for that they they cared about me that much. thank u guys.

well after that rambling now. what happened during the day... well church obviously. met sharon there lols didnt expect to see her there. she was there for free food and came wid her friend. after that she was going to city. it was cool to chat to her. never really chatted to her. but was cool. what else after that went home. didnt do much except watch anime and play games. now doing hw. but not going to be doing that for much longer, hmm what to do lols

NET

NET i got my NET back!!!!!!! woots lols finally got the net back so stupid how long it too to ge tthe net back grrr i wanted it back faster. oh well at least its back now. now i can finally get work done at a better pase and check my emails and events info faster. i dunno how i suvived wid out it for the past few weeks. well now atm not much just dling alot hehehe. trying not to dl to much though cuase we dun want to be capped to early but meh it should be ok.

to day was awesome went to monash for the mcac bbq. hehe it was awesome so many newbies. i so didnt know what to do. so spent most of the time bekind the bbq talking to the oldies hehe mainly cause im not that good at talking to new people. if i get to know then first on msn or chat or somethign then its easier for me to talk to them in person. but just going up to a random and saying hi im zac how are u and bla bla bla bla is kind ahard for me. not really used to it. but meh. what else i ate alot it was gooooood i had 2 or 3 sausages today i think not sure. then after bbq went and got these mochie things that were nice hehe. and had snack foods. then dinner had this chicken stuff dad made tasted better than i thought it would.
my post lack any motivation behind them any more i've gotten lasy with them lols. well it was a fun day three amandas lols so many duplicates in teh club now lols. what to do. met steph she joined the club i rembered her form some where but dun rember where. think it was from church but cant rember when or what. but meh. cooking was fun dunno why i didnt help out sooner.

on other info im going fine still not over stuff but getting there as long as nothing sparks it up again it should be ok. not seeing or talking to her helps also. but meh it all works out eventually i think. what else to talk about i dunno not much else to say. i ate food today which was good and i got my net back! lols i'lve pretty much been dling non stop since i got it back lols it so cool 200gig limit. i cant helpl being excited about it lols.

well thats it for the post

zac

no net

well i cant exactly remember what happened in the last week. kept forgetting to write stuff down in my book. soo i'll write what i can remember. last monday went to uni to check my time table. and what studio i got into. got into the one i wanted which is awesome. then bummed around a bit till les came to the city. hehe went to get plushies !!! lols it was awseome i spent $15 bux got a giant yoshi and a mushroom!!! wanted to give the mushroom to les since she didnt get anythign but she didnt want. then went to get soem stuff to eat and go home. cant rember what else happened that day. tuesday ..... my mind is blank all i remember is going monash then leaving early cause i saw someone i think and going to class. wednesday had a day off but went to uni anyway to do hw which we got done. thursday had class then went to monash and bummed around for a bit. friday went to uni had class then went to monash to bum. sat work and ran into les and mel at chaddy. they were bummign around. they hung aroudn till i finished work. lols all cause mel wanted to see me do ddr which i suck at. i told u mel that i suck at it mind u i dun try to hard. lols well i might get better if i had a mat at home. though the chances of me getting one are low. since i dun have a ps or ps2. ddr just isnt my thing. i prefer shuffleing though i dun do much of that nowadays. meh. sunday had work thats about it. monday? not much had uni off cause of labor day lols so lucky hey monash students still had class lols. well spent the day watching anime got up at like 1 pm lols and watched anime mum got angry at me cause i took a nap at like 5 and slept till 10 and she told me off cause not being able to wake up early tomorrow but i proved her wrong and woke up lols. what else.... not much really. today? nothign much happened just random stuff went to uni early forgot some work for class. probably goign to go to monash to visit peoples apart from that no idea lols.
welll thats it for this post.
oh wait should mention that i should be getting my net back at 8 pm tomorrow night according to TPG. but thinking they will be wrong and delay it again lols. so hopefully i get it tomorrow night! hehehe so just wait for the post tomorrow!