well today went to church. as alot of u know im christian. well most of u know i think and if u dun know now u know. well i havnt' been going recently well for about a year or two. i realized that i actually missed church. the reason i stoped going was cause i felt out of place and awkard. it felt like i didnt belong there. but then when i wasnt at church it felt like i was missing something. i know i belive in God. even when i didnt go church i always asked God what to do and to look after me. i was strugling with what i believed in but i realied that i do believe in him. but i didnt know how much i wanted to commit to him and how i wa ssusposed to do that. in church i felt left out and that no one noticed me. being me i dun think very highly of myself. part of the reason why i felt left out and didnt belong was that there wernt that many people around my age. and the ones that were were heading in a diff direction. i dunno why but prob me just being insecure. in curch there are tight knit groups and i felt like i didnt belong in any of thoes. but now that i went back after a long time it seems diff now. maybe cause i went wid a friend who hasnt been before made it feel diff or my atitude to it changed. now it dun seem so much as iff im left out or anything. and that i feel more comfortable. maybe tis God chalenging me to move past my insecurities and stuff. i still feel insecure there. but it feels more welcoming. and i realised also that people did notice that i was gone. they did see that i wasnt coming. and they did look out for me. they did pray for me. and i tank then for that they they cared about me that much. thank u guys.
well after that rambling now. what happened during the day... well church obviously. met sharon there lols didnt expect to see her there. she was there for free food and came wid her friend. after that she was going to city. it was cool to chat to her. never really chatted to her. but was cool. what else after that went home. didnt do much except watch anime and play games. now doing hw. but not going to be doing that for much longer, hmm what to do lols
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
NET
NET i got my NET back!!!!!!! woots lols finally got the net back so stupid how long it too to ge tthe net back grrr i wanted it back faster. oh well at least its back now. now i can finally get work done at a better pase and check my emails and events info faster. i dunno how i suvived wid out it for the past few weeks. well now atm not much just dling alot hehehe. trying not to dl to much though cuase we dun want to be capped to early but meh it should be ok.
to day was awesome went to monash for the mcac bbq. hehe it was awesome so many newbies. i so didnt know what to do. so spent most of the time bekind the bbq talking to the oldies hehe mainly cause im not that good at talking to new people. if i get to know then first on msn or chat or somethign then its easier for me to talk to them in person. but just going up to a random and saying hi im zac how are u and bla bla bla bla is kind ahard for me. not really used to it. but meh. what else i ate alot it was gooooood i had 2 or 3 sausages today i think not sure. then after bbq went and got these mochie things that were nice hehe. and had snack foods. then dinner had this chicken stuff dad made tasted better than i thought it would.
my post lack any motivation behind them any more i've gotten lasy with them lols. well it was a fun day three amandas lols so many duplicates in teh club now lols. what to do. met steph she joined the club i rembered her form some where but dun rember where. think it was from church but cant rember when or what. but meh. cooking was fun dunno why i didnt help out sooner.
on other info im going fine still not over stuff but getting there as long as nothing sparks it up again it should be ok. not seeing or talking to her helps also. but meh it all works out eventually i think. what else to talk about i dunno not much else to say. i ate food today which was good and i got my net back! lols i'lve pretty much been dling non stop since i got it back lols it so cool 200gig limit. i cant helpl being excited about it lols.
well thats it for the post
zac
to day was awesome went to monash for the mcac bbq. hehe it was awesome so many newbies. i so didnt know what to do. so spent most of the time bekind the bbq talking to the oldies hehe mainly cause im not that good at talking to new people. if i get to know then first on msn or chat or somethign then its easier for me to talk to them in person. but just going up to a random and saying hi im zac how are u and bla bla bla bla is kind ahard for me. not really used to it. but meh. what else i ate alot it was gooooood i had 2 or 3 sausages today i think not sure. then after bbq went and got these mochie things that were nice hehe. and had snack foods. then dinner had this chicken stuff dad made tasted better than i thought it would.
my post lack any motivation behind them any more i've gotten lasy with them lols. well it was a fun day three amandas lols so many duplicates in teh club now lols. what to do. met steph she joined the club i rembered her form some where but dun rember where. think it was from church but cant rember when or what. but meh. cooking was fun dunno why i didnt help out sooner.
on other info im going fine still not over stuff but getting there as long as nothing sparks it up again it should be ok. not seeing or talking to her helps also. but meh it all works out eventually i think. what else to talk about i dunno not much else to say. i ate food today which was good and i got my net back! lols i'lve pretty much been dling non stop since i got it back lols it so cool 200gig limit. i cant helpl being excited about it lols.
well thats it for the post
zac
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
no net
well i cant exactly remember what happened in the last week. kept forgetting to write stuff down in my book. soo i'll write what i can remember. last monday went to uni to check my time table. and what studio i got into. got into the one i wanted which is awesome. then bummed around a bit till les came to the city. hehe went to get plushies !!! lols it was awseome i spent $15 bux got a giant yoshi and a mushroom!!! wanted to give the mushroom to les since she didnt get anythign but she didnt want. then went to get soem stuff to eat and go home. cant rember what else happened that day. tuesday ..... my mind is blank all i remember is going monash then leaving early cause i saw someone i think and going to class. wednesday had a day off but went to uni anyway to do hw which we got done. thursday had class then went to monash and bummed around for a bit. friday went to uni had class then went to monash to bum. sat work and ran into les and mel at chaddy. they were bummign around. they hung aroudn till i finished work. lols all cause mel wanted to see me do ddr which i suck at. i told u mel that i suck at it mind u i dun try to hard. lols well i might get better if i had a mat at home. though the chances of me getting one are low. since i dun have a ps or ps2. ddr just isnt my thing. i prefer shuffleing though i dun do much of that nowadays. meh. sunday had work thats about it. monday? not much had uni off cause of labor day lols so lucky hey monash students still had class lols. well spent the day watching anime got up at like 1 pm lols and watched anime mum got angry at me cause i took a nap at like 5 and slept till 10 and she told me off cause not being able to wake up early tomorrow but i proved her wrong and woke up lols. what else.... not much really. today? nothign much happened just random stuff went to uni early forgot some work for class. probably goign to go to monash to visit peoples apart from that no idea lols.
welll thats it for this post.
oh wait should mention that i should be getting my net back at 8 pm tomorrow night according to TPG. but thinking they will be wrong and delay it again lols. so hopefully i get it tomorrow night! hehehe so just wait for the post tomorrow!
welll thats it for this post.
oh wait should mention that i should be getting my net back at 8 pm tomorrow night according to TPG. but thinking they will be wrong and delay it again lols. so hopefully i get it tomorrow night! hehehe so just wait for the post tomorrow!
Monday, March 02, 2009
lonnnng post lols
this will be very long about 5 days of posts lols.
soo here i go
26/2/09
the actual first day of no net
well yesterday was a false start lols. the tech person didnt show up so today is the actual first day of no net. cousin called up while i was at work and said that it had been switched over. so now no net T.T going to go to maccas to use the free wifi lols to register on TPG. wonder what that will be like? 200 gig limit hehehehe
well anyway back to my other stuff what i actually did today. today went to monash again lols. to hand out wid friends from MCAC. awesome fun it was. lols one of the Asean people reconised me lols. seen her like every day i was there. tues she asked me to join, wed friend roped me into joining, thurs randomly saw/ she said hi lols. bumped into tim and lily there whoule they were promoting amazing race. sat there and talked to them for a bit then i went to work. and man work was bad they had a whole lot of boxes in. pretty much the whole store room was full of boxes. i pretty much spent the whole night trying to pack the boxes away so that they wernt on the floor. only managed to get about half of them on shelves. so there are liek 5 big boxes sitting on the floor of the store room waiting for a place to be found for them. lols i wonder who orded them cause they ordered way to many boxes. now no room for anything in the store room. meh oh well.
ohh got a suprise today les came down to monash which was cool seeing her again. she brought her little dog wid her. OSCAR!! lols grrr oscar didnt remember mee...... he was scared of me dam it. he better rember me next time les or BBQ dog hehehehe.
hmm what else? ooh got visited by ming today which was cool didnt expect that. she walked into the store just as we were shutting up. then walked out again. called her after if she wanted to bum but she was wid her mum meh.
now for what i ate today. i had a red bean paste bun for brunch then went to monash. at monash didnt eat anything just had a can of pepsi. at work i had nothing else had a OJ and some wedges after work. so i didnt eat that much food peoples.
oh i might be goign to stay over at friends house tonight so i might be able to blog this down. going over to check out a new mouse i might get since i've been getting cramps in my arm lately. he might be getting teh same mouse. if i get it ti will be $50 spend lols meh
thats it for this day lols
maybe not quite it for the night. mum just told me to look after myself said i was so thin. i guess this really means i havn't been eating much. seems like its pretty bad if my parents are noticing it now. i guess not eating health or skipping lunch alot of the time dont help. people ask me what emotional state am i in all the time now. i gues i really do have friends that care about me alot and im really grateful for them. i wish the was some way i could repay them for what they have done for me. i dont really know what to do about how skinny i've gotten. how do i put on more weight? i know eatign is the way but im not going to be eating much anyway sigh. i need to think of wa way to get ouve rthe feelings im feeling. i know people say time but i really dun want to be patient atm. i want to get over thsi faster sigh. oh i might be starting another blog for my private thoughs and another one where i put mroe personal stuff but only a few peopel can read so that would be two new blogs. dunno if i will though.
27/02/09
Gaming and thinking
im actually writing this on the 28th but cbb. its the morning so it dun really matter. lets se yesterday i woke up late about 11.30 cause the night before i was drawing and smsing random peopel as i had no net. the drawings i did looked really cool so i'll try post them up eventually but cbb atm. lols what else. lests see who did i sms randomly ther was phe, les, celine, ming and adrian. think there was someone else but not sure. it was fun lols. back to what happened yesterday. got up late actually woke up from friend a msg from adrian asking if i was up yet cause i was susposed to go his place to game. lols so when to his place and played alantica and cs teh whole day. fun fun fun lols. really just went to his place to try a new mouse out. the mouse is nice not so sure about the look of it the designer in me goes gahh... but it feels so nice lols. so $39 for it less thant i though. adrian also lent me a spare netowrk card to test out our new connectin when its connected. so awesome. ended up staying over night since by the time we finished playing ti was about 12.30 1 am and nhe didnt want to drive me hoem which was ok since i dun want him driving tired.
over all teh day was good signed up for tpg, played games, ordered a new mouse and had fun wid a friend. now goign to work on teh bus. lols its so hard to write on teh bus. u cant read my writing lols.
now the update on what i ate. no breaky cause i got up late sorry peopels then for lunch i had chicken and chips. had about 1.5 pieces of fried chicken and teh chips. seems i cant eat as much as i used to any mroe. oh well for dinner i had thai food. adrians mum bought back. had mroe than i would usually eat thats mainly caus i had to. but it was good so that i ate more. today havnt had much only ate a piece fo toast so far. not sure what i will eat fo rlunch. but prob will dun want to get skinnier as mum has started to notice. oh well.
i wonder when we are going to start swimming. have to organise with celine and jimmy to when we are swimming. wonder if we will go weekdays ro weekends oh well. thats it for now
after work now. not much happened at work today so not much new to tak about oh except that i made budget this week as well as the store doing 110% of tis budget. which means i get commission this week. which means extra $$$ lols. and the 110% thing means that there is $2000 to split between the members who made budget. which is awesoem cause more $$$ lols wonder how much extra i will ge. it its alot i'll buy more anime &manga or upgrade my com again maybe buy a ipod. though im probably goign to save it for the trip at end of year. i wante to go thailand malaysia and japan. though prob only going to go to thailand and malaysia. parents dun like me traveling alone. they dun trus my friends either cause of my first year camp. meh its ok. strangely it was jimmy that convinced them somewhat that it would be ok. lols told them that he was going lools said he was responsible since hes the treasure for MCAC and C&S. hopefully i will be able to go since i dun really wnat to go on the study tour this year. to mexico and vietnam.. i want vietnam and japan. when are they goign to do a dam tour to japan grrrrr.... oh well just have tow ait for it. though cant wait for end of year now. got to start planning.
1/3/09
Accidental meeting & thoughts
wrighting this post on the second forgot to write it last night. yesterday was pretty good day woke up late. which sucked cause i wanted to go church. but no one woke me up oh well. got ready for work on teh bus bumped into celine, amanda and jia che (sorry if i misspell) which was fun bummed wid them for a bit before work. saw rain and nas as well at nandos they were watchign movie wid the others. oh and ran into big alex also whcih was random. after that had work that was ok mostly boring stuff lookign for missing items. serving customers. and bumming wid workmates while we wait for customers to show up. lots of chatting about life mostly about uni and random stuff going on in our lives. lots about relationships and family but msotly about what we did the night before or during teh week. oh we also talked about end of year. me wanting to go thailand and malaysia. trying to work out how to convince parents to let me go. its really hard to convince my parents to let me do anythign on my own. like travel, clubbing, go on trips iwd friends. hopefully i can go to all the things i planned this year. oh well just have to wait and see what happenes.
didnt do much last night just stayed at home and watched anime. not much else to do. went through a whole series. lols though i did eat alot yesterday had, sushi, chips, M&Ms and fried rice. so its good im eating more. hopefulyl can keep eatign this much. very much depends on my mood. i felt so full yesterday.
well thats it for this mass post its liek long very long lols now got to go fill otu forms and get stuff signed. sigh......
soo here i go
26/2/09
the actual first day of no net
well yesterday was a false start lols. the tech person didnt show up so today is the actual first day of no net. cousin called up while i was at work and said that it had been switched over. so now no net T.T going to go to maccas to use the free wifi lols to register on TPG. wonder what that will be like? 200 gig limit hehehehe
well anyway back to my other stuff what i actually did today. today went to monash again lols. to hand out wid friends from MCAC. awesome fun it was. lols one of the Asean people reconised me lols. seen her like every day i was there. tues she asked me to join, wed friend roped me into joining, thurs randomly saw/ she said hi lols. bumped into tim and lily there whoule they were promoting amazing race. sat there and talked to them for a bit then i went to work. and man work was bad they had a whole lot of boxes in. pretty much the whole store room was full of boxes. i pretty much spent the whole night trying to pack the boxes away so that they wernt on the floor. only managed to get about half of them on shelves. so there are liek 5 big boxes sitting on the floor of the store room waiting for a place to be found for them. lols i wonder who orded them cause they ordered way to many boxes. now no room for anything in the store room. meh oh well.
ohh got a suprise today les came down to monash which was cool seeing her again. she brought her little dog wid her. OSCAR!! lols grrr oscar didnt remember mee...... he was scared of me dam it. he better rember me next time les or BBQ dog hehehehe.
hmm what else? ooh got visited by ming today which was cool didnt expect that. she walked into the store just as we were shutting up. then walked out again. called her after if she wanted to bum but she was wid her mum meh.
now for what i ate today. i had a red bean paste bun for brunch then went to monash. at monash didnt eat anything just had a can of pepsi. at work i had nothing else had a OJ and some wedges after work. so i didnt eat that much food peoples.
oh i might be goign to stay over at friends house tonight so i might be able to blog this down. going over to check out a new mouse i might get since i've been getting cramps in my arm lately. he might be getting teh same mouse. if i get it ti will be $50 spend lols meh
thats it for this day lols
maybe not quite it for the night. mum just told me to look after myself said i was so thin. i guess this really means i havn't been eating much. seems like its pretty bad if my parents are noticing it now. i guess not eating health or skipping lunch alot of the time dont help. people ask me what emotional state am i in all the time now. i gues i really do have friends that care about me alot and im really grateful for them. i wish the was some way i could repay them for what they have done for me. i dont really know what to do about how skinny i've gotten. how do i put on more weight? i know eatign is the way but im not going to be eating much anyway sigh. i need to think of wa way to get ouve rthe feelings im feeling. i know people say time but i really dun want to be patient atm. i want to get over thsi faster sigh. oh i might be starting another blog for my private thoughs and another one where i put mroe personal stuff but only a few peopel can read so that would be two new blogs. dunno if i will though.
27/02/09
Gaming and thinking
im actually writing this on the 28th but cbb. its the morning so it dun really matter. lets se yesterday i woke up late about 11.30 cause the night before i was drawing and smsing random peopel as i had no net. the drawings i did looked really cool so i'll try post them up eventually but cbb atm. lols what else. lests see who did i sms randomly ther was phe, les, celine, ming and adrian. think there was someone else but not sure. it was fun lols. back to what happened yesterday. got up late actually woke up from friend a msg from adrian asking if i was up yet cause i was susposed to go his place to game. lols so when to his place and played alantica and cs teh whole day. fun fun fun lols. really just went to his place to try a new mouse out. the mouse is nice not so sure about the look of it the designer in me goes gahh... but it feels so nice lols. so $39 for it less thant i though. adrian also lent me a spare netowrk card to test out our new connectin when its connected. so awesome. ended up staying over night since by the time we finished playing ti was about 12.30 1 am and nhe didnt want to drive me hoem which was ok since i dun want him driving tired.
over all teh day was good signed up for tpg, played games, ordered a new mouse and had fun wid a friend. now goign to work on teh bus. lols its so hard to write on teh bus. u cant read my writing lols.
now the update on what i ate. no breaky cause i got up late sorry peopels then for lunch i had chicken and chips. had about 1.5 pieces of fried chicken and teh chips. seems i cant eat as much as i used to any mroe. oh well for dinner i had thai food. adrians mum bought back. had mroe than i would usually eat thats mainly caus i had to. but it was good so that i ate more. today havnt had much only ate a piece fo toast so far. not sure what i will eat fo rlunch. but prob will dun want to get skinnier as mum has started to notice. oh well.
i wonder when we are going to start swimming. have to organise with celine and jimmy to when we are swimming. wonder if we will go weekdays ro weekends oh well. thats it for now
after work now. not much happened at work today so not much new to tak about oh except that i made budget this week as well as the store doing 110% of tis budget. which means i get commission this week. which means extra $$$ lols. and the 110% thing means that there is $2000 to split between the members who made budget. which is awesoem cause more $$$ lols wonder how much extra i will ge. it its alot i'll buy more anime &manga or upgrade my com again maybe buy a ipod. though im probably goign to save it for the trip at end of year. i wante to go thailand malaysia and japan. though prob only going to go to thailand and malaysia. parents dun like me traveling alone. they dun trus my friends either cause of my first year camp. meh its ok. strangely it was jimmy that convinced them somewhat that it would be ok. lols told them that he was going lools said he was responsible since hes the treasure for MCAC and C&S. hopefully i will be able to go since i dun really wnat to go on the study tour this year. to mexico and vietnam.. i want vietnam and japan. when are they goign to do a dam tour to japan grrrrr.... oh well just have tow ait for it. though cant wait for end of year now. got to start planning.
1/3/09
Accidental meeting & thoughts
wrighting this post on the second forgot to write it last night. yesterday was pretty good day woke up late. which sucked cause i wanted to go church. but no one woke me up oh well. got ready for work on teh bus bumped into celine, amanda and jia che (sorry if i misspell) which was fun bummed wid them for a bit before work. saw rain and nas as well at nandos they were watchign movie wid the others. oh and ran into big alex also whcih was random. after that had work that was ok mostly boring stuff lookign for missing items. serving customers. and bumming wid workmates while we wait for customers to show up. lots of chatting about life mostly about uni and random stuff going on in our lives. lots about relationships and family but msotly about what we did the night before or during teh week. oh we also talked about end of year. me wanting to go thailand and malaysia. trying to work out how to convince parents to let me go. its really hard to convince my parents to let me do anythign on my own. like travel, clubbing, go on trips iwd friends. hopefully i can go to all the things i planned this year. oh well just have to wait and see what happenes.
didnt do much last night just stayed at home and watched anime. not much else to do. went through a whole series. lols though i did eat alot yesterday had, sushi, chips, M&Ms and fried rice. so its good im eating more. hopefulyl can keep eatign this much. very much depends on my mood. i felt so full yesterday.
well thats it for this mass post its liek long very long lols now got to go fill otu forms and get stuff signed. sigh......
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