hmm its ova

woot the sickness is ova and so is the heat wave well mostly. i think my sick ness had something to do wid the heat as well i had a stupid head ache every day it was hot and i have one right now but its not so bad.

i wanna take a poll the question is if a guy/girl tries to steal another guys gf/bf is that person the scum of society? or how bad do u think it is for a person to do that. i know my position its one of hate utter disgust for a person like that. partily cause a guy has done it to me and well i hate him abosultly hate him. the girl? annoyed at still very much annoyed at. falling for a guy like that and continiously defending him when it is obvious he went after her while we were going out. and not seeing how much of a player he is. oh yeah also found out alot of people think he's a player. not telling who but yeah alotttttt. my feelings for her have they gone away not sure. but know that love and hate are interlinked and like one can turn into the other some how. so maybe i hate her now...... hmm nope not hate but very strong annoyance and not much feelings of kind ness towards her atm.
anyway back to my poll write your answer and any feeligns about the the whole guy steal gf from another guy issue in the comments and ill tally it up in a later blog.
thankies people laters.
zac

sickness

sigh i got sick yesterday sigh. went to wedding and was feeling kinda sick then but was like not that bad then when i got home i felt worse and like slept the whole day. then when i was sleeping at night still feeling sick couldnt sleep properly had to sleep a certain way either wise my body ached like no tomorrow. still feeling the sickness now sigh dun like being sick especially during the hollies. im starting to feel better anyway so hopefully im all better by tomorrow.

any way its been 27days............................. how am i feeling? i dunno i guess im feeling better but at the same time feeling worse who knows. so far im getting ova it all probably need another month or two before i get ova it totally. deff cant go back to the way things were before will see what happens.

lamentations

is there a point in hoping?
is there a reason to trust?
is there a reason to believe what she says?
is there a reason to listen?
there is no point to hope
i dun think i can trust
believing is not possible
and listening is just to hard
can i still be friends?
at the moment i think not
what i hear is not always true
what i see is misleading
what u say to me is one thing
to another it is different
u lie to me so we can be friends
but once its found out i cant trust again
do i want to understand u?
no i dun really want to
if what i think is true
u will feel pain soon
and i dun really give the dam
well maybe i might a little bit
but if u want to be friends again
it might happen all depends on u